not so happy anniversary

So it will be Will's and I 6 month anniversary on the 12th of this month. I hope we can make it that long ! For the past week we've only seen eachother once. He told me that he was working all weekend but guess what, today I texted him and he was hanging out with David. GRR. Paul texted me friday and saturday, friday it was exactly one year since him and I first hooked up. It's so strange but even though I hate his personality and I don't like kissing him that much, I really like it when he gives me attention. Right now I feel like hanging out with them, I want to text him but I know that he wouldn't reply or he wouldn't be able to hang out. I guess I could sneak him in later tonight .. but I know that we would end up kissing or something and I've already cheated on him once and I felt so bad that I cried myself to sleep.God I'm so confused ... I use to love Will. I remember one time we were cuddling and I hinted that it could be like this forever, sad thing is that I wasn't drunk.lol. Lately all I do is come home from school, go up stairs, do h.w, get on computer, and watch food shows. I think I need to start working out because I've gainted weight and I really feel down all of the time. When Will and I first starting dating I wasn't that into him, I was dependant on him for my happiness and unfortunately now my happiness is directly related to my relationship with Will. I promised myself that I wouldn't do that again after Matt. I texted Will a couple hours ago and still no reply. I once read that how fast a boy replies to a text shows you how much they like you. If I'm going by that then Will must be lossing interest. On Tuesday him and I went to free skate night at the ice arena. It was fun but when when we got back to my house all he wanted to do was kiss. It seriously took him twenty minutes to leave. It seems like he just likes me physically. I remember when he use to text me in the morning and wouldn't stop until I went to bed. Boy has time changed. Maybe I should just give up on men, they all screw me over.

6 hrs in a car

Today my family and I drove from Grand Junction to Pueblo. I saw a total of ...

5- Obama signs
10+ - McCain signs
10+ - Bob Schaffer signs
3 - Udall signs

I HATE AP GOVERNMENT ! I HATE ESSAYS ! I HATE QUIZZES ! AND I HATE JOBS !
haha now that I've gotten that out of the way ....

life

So I offically made it through my first week of school, but only barely. Lately I have been in a weird mood. It seems like nothing I normally like interests me anymore. My friends are really the only thing that I still like. My parents are really annoying me and I don't even want to go into how Will has been acting lately. For awhile I couldn't imagine ever saying I wanted to break with him, but now I'm starting to think that breaking up with him may just be the only thing I can do. He doesn't make me happy anymore. In all reality I think I was actually happier when I liked Paul ( I know that sounds horrible ). I am suppose to help out with Will's Eagle Scout Award Ceremony on Monday so I guess I will stay with him until then but after that I think I am going to break up with him because we're going in seperate directions I don't think I like him anymore, God I am tearing up just writing this stuff .... I am such a horrible person. But I think Will feels it too, yesterday he didn't call me to hang out with him and today when I asked if he wanted to hang out this weekend he said "let's hang out Sunday." I'm sorry but who hangs out on Sunday ? I am on my period so maybe this has something to do with my mood, idk.

school blues

So I have had my phone for a couple days and oh my gosh, it is so cool ! Of course Virginia had to ruin it for me, but oh well. She got the ev2 in maroon. She saw my texting yesterday and she pulled out her and informed me that her was "nicer". I was pretty pissed but then I remembered I got mine for fifty bucks and it made it all better. Honestly why does everyone have to be so bitchy ?

Thursday I am hanging out with Amy = )
Today Will and I are going to Borders = )
Friday Anita and I are going shopping = )

Marie is home, she sent me a really nice postcard while she was away. How much should I tell her dad to pay me ..... hmmmm maybe a dillion dollars, lol. (inside joke)

envy dos

So I ended up not getting a phone tomorrow, but I probably will tomorrow = ) I am getting the env2 in black, it will look ballin'.

Tomorrow my mom and I are planning on having lunch together and then she is going to take me to get my phone. It is eighty bucks ... but hey that is actually a cheap price for those phones.

Okay I am going to wear a sweater for my pictures, a dress, and then maybe a shirt, jeans and scarfs ? I can't decide .. lol.

Will wants to go to the museum with me tomorrow and then maybe out to sushi. mmmm.
seriously I feel like I keep on gaining more and more weight.

F

So I am getting my senior pictures taken on the 11th .. THAT IS NEXT WEEK ! I think I am just going to get a picture of me in a sweater or something, pretty much just like my sisters photo. I know you get outside shots and indoor shots but I really can't think of any where I would want to go outdoor wise. Is it just me or are senior pictures overrated ? I mean you spend 150 + just for a couple pictures of yourself ..... yeah I am really not looking forward to this, lol.

I am in trouble for coming home an hour late last night. I now have an offical curfew of 11:00. Which actually isn't bad at all. oh well.

I might be gettting a new phone today = ) It will just be an upgrade but hey it will still be nicer then the one I have right now.

Salad and Sushi

So I am really bugging out. After our last date Will and I have been acting strange with each other. Usually he has texted me already saying good morning or something but it is 1: 10 right now and NO TEXT ! I seriously am sorta worried .... Him and I have only been dating for 2 months and I really don't want to get too attached with him but at the same time I really think that we can last awhile ... uhhh I love having a boyfriend but it has been so long since I have had one maybe I am just not use to it ... or maybe I am not cut out to have one .... uhhhh.

Horrible night

So last night Will and I had a date night, it started out good at least.
Him and I went to Texas Road House and then to a movie but pretty much after that it all went down hill. We met two of his friends at Bananas and guess what happened .. WILL BROKE A WINDOW ! oh and one of his friends broke one of the golf clubs .. honestly they are so crazy .... And to top of the night I ended up spilling all of my soda on my pants, it was red so it looked like I was bleeding ...

Good day

Today Anita is throwing a dinner party at her house around 6:30, I'm really excited to see who all shows up. I know Amy can't come, which sucks. Apparently I was suppose to call her last week and I never did ..... oops. Seriously I really need to start hanging out with more of my friends. I feel really anitsocial lately = (

So I saw Matt at the mall a couple days ago, we talked and it was extremely awkward, especially when i saw that he was with three girls. I also saw him at the movie theater the next day, God I can't get a break can I. Lol.

My parents are both in bad moods today so I think I will be spending the day over at the kiser's in their pool (sweet).

The concert was amazing !

Fiest

So the concert was amazing ! Feist was really cool and the opening band was equally entertaining. Lesley Fiest is a total hippie from Canada and she made the audience howl at the moon ( well she said howl at the lights )

fuck

Got back form camping earlier today. God I really hate my family sometimes.
First when I get home I go downstairs to find that my mom has painted our computer room freakin' serbet green ... EWWW ! Not only that but my sister and my mom have decided to act really mean today. And they wonder why I love to hang out with Will some much, him and I have tons of fun together and he actually appreciates my company.

My nose is really sunburned and it hurts really badly (just to let ya'll know)

I need to read Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas

List

revised list of everything will and i have done together
1. go to tai chili
2. go to bamboo city
3. go to qdoba (sp)
4. go mini golfing
5. smoke the hookah
6. get in water fight
7. watch A Clockwork Orange, Baseketball (yes it is spelled like that), Eastern Promises, Bridget Jones's Diary, Kung Fu Hostle, The Blair Witch Project 2, and Teeth
8. go four wheeling
9. go to wal mart (twice)
10. go to the ridges and watch charlie and quinn long board
11. hang out with david, ryan, and dustin
12. go out to sushi with clay
13. have dinner at home with family
14. play chess
15. play scrabble
16. go on the monument
17. go to gene taylors, sportsmen warehouse, and army surplus store
18. go to the mall

haha he's going to be gone for 12 days and he wanted to make sure we got a lot accomplished before he left, lol. smooth. we also hang out with charlie, quinn, dustin and kyle a lot. I swear I hang out more with him and his friends then I do my own (that is sad).

CRAZY NIGHT

So last night my parents finally let me stay out till eleven, yay ! Will and I ended up hanging out with Charlie for most of the night except we managed to get away for awhile and go up to the monument and look at the city lights. It was around nine when we decided to do this so it was just dark enough that I was scared and it was really nice weather wise outside. Him and I talked about God mostly and then when we were starting to cuddle he jumped up and screamed .... turns out a mouse ran across his leg and it freaked him out. Well RIGHT after that experience I felt a mouse by me so I jumped up and into will's arm and he started laughing so hard.jerk.haha.

Fucked up night

So tonight Will and I decided it would be fun to take those "pills" (refer back to last entry if you don't know what I am talking about). It was a total joke and nothing happened but seriously tonight was horrible.

First at Blockbuster while we were walking around Will put his hand on my butt, I don't know why but I really hated it so I sorta got pissed and told him to keep his hands off. Well after that we went back to my house and watched a movie, it was a scary movie and it was enjoyable then when we went back to get another movie we decided to see "Teeth". I will not go into details about the movie, lets just say it is really fucked up. But anyways ... the whole time I was thinking about Will and about how he jokes around a lot about sexual things and how I don't like ... and that I really miss Matt because he never did that sorta thing.

On the ride home I told Will I wouldn't have sex with him and he said that was fine, he liked me for me, not for sex and stuff. But I still think he expects it from me, which is fucked up. I think I brought this sorta upon myself though because he asked me if I had ever seen a guy ____ and I said yes and now he acts really different. I told him I was a virgin but he said that doesn't bother him, he just doesn't want to think of me being around another guys _____ honestly men are so annoying.

Funny night

Will was in a funny mood last night.

Well the night before while him and his friends were waiting for the hookah to arrive I got really feisty and I started hitting Will and stuff so I guess I can't talk. That night he ended up picking me up and carrying me around for twenty minutes, lol.

But back to last night. He kept on like stroking my arm and my leg constantly ...... it was so weird. I mean it felt nice but he usually isn't into touching. After watching the movie he just laid down on my arm and we talked into the late hours of the night. He would say something and then kiss my arm, it was really cute. But yeah while we were at the gas station I found this packet of these pills called "horny goat weed" and it is suppose to make you really horny, isn't that strange ? I mean how desperate are these people ? It was for ninety-nine cents and I wanted to buy some just to see what happens but I decided not too, maybe for another night. lol.

long time no posty

So sorry I have not been blogging lately,been way too busy [ yeah right ]. Well Will went to Alaska and guess what he bought me, NINETY DOLLAR EARRINGS ! oh and he bought me this really cool winter scarf that has the Manchester United logo on it. It is pretty sweet. So yeah he spoiled me while he was away and I got him was a lame pen that has a falcon on it, haha. But yeah he told his family we are "dating" I didn't have the heart to argue with them because I mean he does really treat me well and stuff. He got in a car accident so now I have drive us everywhere, lol, I think it is pretty funny. For awhile i had four guys liking me, now it is down to three. Paul, Will, and Billy like me. WHY CAN'T ANYONE REALLY COOL LIKE ME ? lol. out of those three I think Will is the best, we have a lot of fun together.

This is what Will and I have done in the past week.

1. watch two movies
2. go out to sushi
3. have dinner with his family
4. go see a movie
5. play scrabble
6. watch the mighty boosh
7. wash my car
8. hang out with dustin, quinn, charlie, and kyle
9. try to fix 4Runner and hang out with dustin, ryan, and david

I know isn't that sick, we hang out a lot. But he is going to be gone for 12 days in July. Summer is going by so fast, it is ridiculous = ( I am sad.

Today I got my tickets for the Feist concert I am going to with my sister, brother and Ellen. pretty excited. we are leaving on the 14th and the concert is on the 15th.

I am hanging out with Marie today, should be fun. So far the only females I have hung out with this summer, is Tessa, Anita, and Amy.lol.

turtle eating lettuce

So Will bought me a necklace while he was on vacation in S.Dakota. Oh geez. It is this necklace with a turtle on it and I actually like it a lot. He got it for me because him and I were talking about our Indian names and I said that mine was "turtle eating lettuce" so that was what he decided to buy me .. a turtle. Tonight I went over to his house and watched this really crazy movie called A Clockwork Orange and wow there were a lot of boobs in that movie OMG ! It was really funny watching it because Will got all red and stuff, lol. Well he put his arm around me and I was like ..... fuck fuck fuck so I starting lying down and then he put his hand on my leg and I was like fuck fuck fuck ... seriously Will loves to touch me ... awkward. he is nice and everything, I just don't see myself with him. I mean I joke around about marrying him but come on ... it's Will Kiser

better

Found a new band, well actually I have known about them for awhile but I just now actually listened to them. They are the free download for this week on itunes. Yeah it is pretty intense I know. So I e-mailed Matt for some sympathy, it worked. haha. Oh yeah I hate all men. Just to let you know. Guess I'll just have to wait till I meet Murph from the The Wombats ....

[cough,cough]

So for the past few days I have been sick in bed, yeah it really sucked. Well today I am pleased to announce I was able to get out of bed and social with my parents. I still have a slightly sore throat but it's feeling WAY better then how it was. Just hope tomorrow I am 90% better = )

I still have a horrible sore throat and I think my boobs are getting larger. FACK !

Screw you bug

I AM SICK
Pretty sure Will REALLY likes me and I don't know what to do. Last night he texted me and said that he liked me just as I am and that he thought I was hot/beautiful. FACK ! Seriously this isn't good. To add to this stress Billy likes me and pretty sure when Garrick and I were texting he said something really weird. He said even though I might not be tan goddess I was sure already at goddess level. YIKES ! Why can't normal and attractive guys like me ? I get the rich ones but they are all less than appealing, maybe my standards are too high. Maybe I should date one of them ..... God that is such a scary thought. Ellen and Anita both think I am going to marry Will, ehhhh. My parents all <3 him but him and I aren't on the same level emotionally and to be honest I want to be with a guy that I am attracted to. I am not attracted to Billy or Will, Garrick a little but still .... Please God say that next school year there is a hot/intelligent foreign exchange student that I can be with : ) I'd be a happy girl.

Finished reading Bridget Jones's Diary. When mom gets home from her meetings today she is taking me to Barnes and Noble the buy the second one [smiles]. One of the perks of being sick is that your parents drive you around everywhere and buy you things. Just wish my sore throat would go away.

cowboys and indians

Hello Blog, long time not new posty. Since I have written nothing too exciting as occured. I've started reading a new book which is really good. Finally finished Love Is A Many Trousered Thing. Pretty sure I stopped reading that book because one of the characters reminded me too much of Matt. Yeah and pretty cried at the end of the novel, I am such a pussy.

Tessa and I are tanning this week :) and we're also going on another walk because my goal is to get down to 125 by the end of the summer. That means ladies and gents that I will have to loose 20 pounds, fuck me. I really don't think I look too too horrible I just really want to looked toned. All of this means that I need to give up my love for icecream, it will be easier now that Ellen is gone because we also eat icecream when we're together. Don't really know why ......


Been talking to Garrick, Will, and Billy. Pretty sure they all like me and pretty sure I don't like any of them, well as friends I do but sadly there is someone else that I sorta like (even though I know it is really stupid). I think that is it, you always want what you can't have.

Yes Tessa Thursday Sounds Good

So today I bought some really cute sandals :) I also went on a walk with Amy in Devils Canyon. I seriously had such a good time with her. We just talked and talked (it made the hike go by really fast). This Friday we are going to go again and I hope it isn't as windy, then maybe I will able to jog haha.

So Will is in Nebraska, yay ! I won't have to talk to him for a couple of weeks. I honestly don't understand why Billy and him like me so much. Too bad no other boys see what they see in me. Maybe my luck will change if I get a job at REI .... that would be awesome.

Yesterday was the best day of summer so far. Anita and I went down to City Market and got salads and then we went down to main street and tried on clothes at Planet Earth. I think I am going to go back and buy this really cool 80's dress that looks like a disco ball. After we went on Mainstreet Amy, Anita and I went to Lincoln park and had lunch and soaked out in the sun. I am on my way to be a sunkissed goddess.

Yay

I am seeing her in concert, be jealous.
If you don't know who she is, shame on you.
Feist
Ellen is suppose to come with me ....

5/27

So Will officially claimed me a couple nights ago, AGGGRRGH ! I looked at his text messages on his cell phone and they were all from his friends saying how lucky he was to get a "chick like me." Yeah needless to say I was slightly pissed. I guess he thought because we hung out and texted we were dating .... okay now I must admit that is how my relationship with Matt started but I don't know ... it is different with Will. He is like my brother almost, except he talks about how cute I am and stuff. On Sunday when I was wearing my jeans he was like "Megan you look hot in those jeans, they are so tight, they make your ass like fine." I was like ... "SHUT UP WILL !" Seriously .... He needs to stop saying shit like that.

After we finished watching a couple of movies Will's buddies came over and they were all really annoying. One "relieved himself" right in front of me. I was so grossed out. I didn't look (in case you were wondering). I mean David is hot and all but I don't want to see him and Will's other weird friends with their pants down. They kept on talking about hot chicks and how well hung they all were. It was so annoying. I was like " I've seen bigger." I made Will take me home around eleven and on the way home Will made me laugh and it was perfect UNTIL he almost ran over my cat.

worst thing a boy can ever say to a women
Megan do you purr when you are happy ? my cat does ......

5 and 1/2 hours

Yesterday I hung out with David and Will. I actually had a lot of fun, I just wish everyone didn't think him and I liked each other. I mean he is funny and stuff but he is really gross haha. Now David on the other hand, he is a HOTT ! plus he is really shy like so I don't have to worry about him embarrassing me :) Too bad he is Will's best friend or I could put the moves on him. Oh yeah.

I am practing my ACT stuff. Today I did 2 practices already, one english and one reading. Those ones I am not too worried about, it is just science and math. Damn you math and reading ! haha.

Last night was pretty fun I guess, I fell asleep, again.

First day of summer.

So last night I got to talk to David ... yeah. He has the most amazing voice on the phone. I just can't wait to meet him, my mom says he looks like a young version of Tom Cruise, yummy. Hahah. I am retaking the ACTs on the 14th of June, I am going to study a lot more then I did for it last night :) So yeah tomorrow Will,DAVID, and I are going to go to Tai Chili for lunch. If David doesn't come and it ends up being just Will and I am going to be so pissed lol.

Today my parents and I went out to lunch, it was nice. I wore my really cute sun dress all day, I really need to get some more dresses because they are really comfortable. Ellen is leaving in three days I should get a job while she is gone because I won't have anything to do ... lol. I am glad I still Anita and Tessa, we'll hang out :)

The weather outside is really nice, it is cool ! I am so happy, I will really miss it when it is hott like 100+ degrees outside.yuck.

Matt and I are still e-mailing .. he has to work all weekend and all of next week. I told him to look forward to his paycheck. I want to see him but I don't know how we'd react if we were around each other considering the last time I was with him we ended up making out, haha. I have that little problem I ALWAYS make out with boys. I just like doing it so much (it is very addicting). I wonder if David is a good kisser ... hmmmmm.

FROGS !

So I just got home from this zoology field trip. We went out to the Monument around 7:00 p.m. and we went and looked at different species of toads and some frogs. It was really fun actually. Except there were a lot of couples on the trip so I felt a little lonely but oh well. I hung out with this one couple Alice and Ryan and we all talked about scary movies and hippies ..... I got 25 extra credit points for going on this field trip so I am pretty happy. This is the first time that in awhile I felt like I wanted a boyfriend. Hmmm .. who should I ask out. Oh so I guess Wes Williams got a 35 on the SAT's THAT IS INSANE ! oh well ....

I can't wait to start running with Amy. On Saturday I am going to go visit Anita at the Snow Shack, she works every Saturday, isn't that crazy ? Ellen is leaving in 6 days =( I don't know what I am going to do without my best friend.

only two more days left !

Grades as of now :
B - Math
A - US History
A - AP Language
A - Espanol
B+ - Zoology
A - Physical Science

If I am able to bring that B+ to an A that would be mean, with my weighted grade I could get a 4.0 for this semester ! Can you believe it, that would seriously be so cool ... I would be really happy that would mean my accumulative GPA would be 3.85 for my high school career which isn't bad at all. I got my SAT scores back and I got a 22 which isn't bad for what I thought I was going to get ..... if I get three higher Mesa State will give me + 2,000 a year so I think I will redo it .... I did really well for reading I scored a 25. Math I only scored 18 but for me that is good. haha I seriously hate math so much.

Grades as of now

math - B
us history - A
ap lang - A
espanol - B+
zoology - B+
physical science - A

Tonighy I have girl scouts, I guess it is going to be at Lisa's office and I really have no effing clue where that is, haha. Oh well ... I have to study for the rest of my espanol final and for my math final. I really hate school it is so boring and stressful. I hope Ellen and I can find a cool concert to go to before she leaves for Europe.

Sunday

Matt stopped e-mailing me. probably thought that it was getting to much like the old days and he was probably thinking I was going to try and get back together with him, please bitch.

Last night after Ellen and Kate left I texted someone and they came over and we hung out until one in the morning. It was amazing. it was a good night.

Will came over today and I he was like " you are sweating a lot, like you have stains." I was like ... yeah I haven't put on anything today. I hope that makes me less appealing. On the plus side I got to talk to David via text message today = ) he sounds like a really hot guy.

grades as of now

math : B
us history : A
AP Lang : A
espanol: B
Zoology : B
Physical Science: A

I have homework to do.

HELLO !

We are talking again = )
I wanted [him] to come over but he was at a grad. party ... seriously man.
I guess it is a good thing because I am behind on all my h.w.

hi

Lamest joke ever. Wanna know it ? Ask one of your closest friends (or at least someone that knows your birthday) what day your birthday is on. Then ask them what year. (ex. what year is my birthday ? ). Then when they say the year you were born yell " MY BIRTHDAY IS EVERY YEAR !" See I told you it was a really lame joke thing. I heard someone say it in Physical Science. Of course THAT class I hear a lot of funny things, lol. Seriously though ... I love Mr.Hicks a lot : )

Waterbottle

Listening to Lilly Allen really helped my mood. I always watched a couple Mighty Boosh episodes (no one can be upset when you are watching those). Today I have a lot of homework, I think I am going to have to stay up late .......

Sorry Made of Honor sucked Tessa, I am really looking forward to our tanning days !

I need to invest a new phone sometime .....

but yes, listen to Lilly Allen, she is great.

My playlist for today.

1.) Lilly Allen
2.) 3oh!3
3.) " Mad World "
4.) Oasis
5.) Ki:Theory

Ellen needs to burn me The Kooks, God I can't stop thinking about those hot boys we saw on Mainstreet, they were so cute ! correction : hotthottsupercutebangable

F***

Today was a horrible day weather wise. The wind blew 24/7 and it is really cloudy. This will sound so cliche but the weather totally matched my mood. I am so glad that summer is almost here because I am sick of 90 % of all the kids I go to school with. Correction ... I am sick of 90 % of people in this town ! I am really glad Anita went out to lunch with me today, that was the only good part of my day, well when I found out that I had an A in AP I was happy too .... and when Mr.Hicks helped us make those cool bottles. I guess today isn't all bad but still ......

Ellen is going to be gone most of the time this summer, but we are planning on going to a concert in Denver and then going to Boulder and hanging out. Her and I had a lot of fun this weekend. Gah .... someone please shoot me.

Places I Want To Visit

and

Funny story

Today two "indie" kids were on the side of the road holding a sign that said "Tour Van Broke." They were walking up and down the median trying to hitch a ride when they came across me and my oldsmobile and they stood there awhile giving me puppy dog eyes trying to let them in. Needless to say I shook my head and mouthed " sorry now." Well these girls behind me let them in their car. Lol. Both of them were from my school, one of them was hot but he is dating the "emo" Megan. The other one had way too many tattoos and his butt crack always shows ... awkward.

Good Day

To start off I have to come clean about something I did over the weekend ....
I watched all three seasons of The Mighty Boosh
Yeah I know, that is really sad :)

I found some really cool stuff on The Mighty Boosh website, I want to buy the hot pants and this "wicked" red shirt (birthday present ideas).

Today Mr.Palmer told me I got a 9 on one of my Ap practice test essays, I hope to God I can pull that off during the the real test.That would be so awesome. I didn't buy a yearbook this year and today my mom called the school and they said I could still get one for ten dollars more. My mom was like " have all your friends sign and then bring it home for me to look at." Seriously I have the cutest mom ever ! Only 9 days left of school. I AM SO HAPPY !
Tomorrow I might wear shorts, I know .... be amazed

[ I want to meet these guys ]


the one with the hat is Vince (Noel Fielding)I want to make babies with him.

ALERT ALERT !
Someone needs to cheer me up honestly. I was thinking about this time last year. I suddenly all the emotioned I felt last year came and bit me in the ass. This time last year I felt really sad because Matt was being weird ....... I really miss having a boyfriend, I really miss someone liked me. Virginia, Jessica, and Kayla all have boyfriends and I don't know ... I don't understand why no one likes me. Lately the only boys that like me are the ones that think I am just "hot." I want someone to like me because of my personality ..... Right now the only boy that I am some what interested in is Jeff, but I know that is never going happen. God I hate summer, seriously summer is the worst time. I always get uber depressed. I miss the old Matt, the one that use to e-mail me and see how I was doing. I e-mailed him to see if he had "The It Crowd" and he just said " conrad has them ... " wow you can't say anything more. You are a total ass ( I bet he has a girlfrient now or something) feeeeeeck ................................. seriously I hate men.

neon colors

Today I went to the mall with Ashley Smith. We walked around looking at all the ugly clothes and then when we went to Zumiez I met the cutest/coolest boy ever ! Pretty sure he was flirting with Ashley more than me but oh well. HE TALKED TO US ! I got a new shirt, it is pretty cute I guess ... I hate school SO MUCH HOMEWORK ! Jeff S. said hi to me without me having to say "hi" first. [please ask me on a date].

Vent of 4/21

I really hate when people text you and say "we need to talk." Maybe I do not want to talk, maybe I really don't feel like discussing anything right now. I know what is going to happen. Today, at lunch, [you] probably discussed your little beef with me to megan e. and she probably backed you up and everything. You'll call me and expect me to apologize, well I already said I was sorry on Saturday so forget about me saying it again. I hate when two friends get in a fight because then their friends have to hear both sides each making the other one look bad. Sorry to everyone that had to hear about what happened on Saturday, it is not your problem.

Friday night

Ellen made me watch this BBC show called The Mighty Boosh. It is effing funny. Here is a clip from the episode with Old Greg (my favorite one so far)

you'll love it I promise.

Last night Ellen came over and we ate good Chinese food from Zen Garden and started working on this stupid project for AP. We were suppose to finish it last night but instead Kate L. came over and we watched The Mighty Boosh and The Mummy. We seriously had so much fun yelling "I'm Old Greg ... I have a mangina !" My mom and dad were slightly disturbed. Last night would have been perfect if we would have made pancakes Mmmmm ..... We have to get together today and probably tomorrow in order to finish this stupid pro-ject. But this will have to happen AFTER I get from Montrose, yes I have to go to MonTROSE to meet my sister and have lunch with her*damn* Seriously I am mad at Ellen for showing me this awesome show, I am just watching it right now, over and over. haha.

Earlier today Tessa and I went and cleaned up part of the highway by FMHS. It was really nice just talking to her, we seriously talked about everyone we knew. We both agree that Kristin didn't deserve to be treated so horribly by Danny.Bleh men are total dogs 99.99999 % of the time. But like I have said before, they are so irresistible. Especially Zack in my espanol class, he is so cute in a " I'm totally out of it" sorta way. But w/e.

I got all A's on my quizzes I took in physical science, language, and math. I felt so good, A's make me smile = ) Yeah I am a nerd, screw you guys .....

SLEEP

I haven't been able to sleep tonight. I am way too stressed out about college right now. What if Mesa is the only school that accepts me ? That would be horrible considering I really want to go to either CU or CSU. Well it won't help at 3:36 in the morning worry about it I guess.

Today I have an espanol test ..... crap !
I need to start applying for jobs.

Will texted me last night and offered to bring me over some icecream since I wasn't feeling well. Why can't someone else like me as much as he likes me ? Srsly.

Today I feel completely ugly and worthless ... I effing hate having this mouth probelm. It makes me feel so uncomfortable = (

[he] didn't reply last night to my text, I need to get over him. ERRRRGH

GG

So today I had another surgery on my mouth. Now my mouth is numb and I can't eat anything ......... you should see the whole in my mouth IT IS HUGE !

Only 1 more day until JUNO comes out on dvd, yay !

Please say Virginia remembers to burn my 3oh!3 cd (since Paul is too stupid to do it)

This Friday I am going to have a little get together at my house that will include chinese food,cupcakes and TONS of movies (most likely one of them will be Across the Universe) I am so looking forward to it. I wonder if I should do my homework ... probably

soundtrack to summer

[sia]


[kate nash]
[blink 182]

[the sounds]

[chester french]




this blog entry with get bigger when I think of more bands

Death

So I hear I missed a good prom. Believe me, I wish I could have stayed here and done something fun like prom. Instead I was in a blizzard on Friday. We left for Denver at three and we ended up not getting to Denver until TEN ! Why you ask. They closed I 70 because of weather and accidents in two places. Well my dad being resourcful decided it would be a good idea to go through Leadville and end up by Copper Mountain. Yeah it was a good idea ... except that there was a HUGE BLIZZARD It was the scariest experience ever ! Srsly

Well after that horrific experience the funeral came. At first I didn't think I would cry, I mean I have only met Frank once or twice (he was my grandfather's brother). But when I was sitting in there in the Catholic church, surrounded by all my family members I could feel the tears coming. And it didn't get any better when Frank's son Billy (my brother's best friend) went up and read this letter to his father that he and his siblings wrote. " Dad I know we never talked about things .... " It was the saddest letter/thing I have ever heard ..... Billy could barely finish reading the letter, he had his daughter come up with him just in case he broke down and cried ..... Looking around I saw my two brothers bawling, my mom as usual crying and my dad mr. "stone hard" crying. Ladies and Gents, I cried so much. Listening to that letter I started thinking about the fact that soon my close family would be at funerals for my grandmother's and later I would be at my own parent's funeral. In this strange way I am glad I had to go to a funeral. I saw my grandfather's grave, the cemetary Frank was buried in was full of my relatives. Seeing "Anthony Velarde" made my grandfather seem real. He was born in 1917 and he died in 1973. My dad was on 24 .... I am glad Billy had so many years with his dad, even though Frank wasn't always nice.

I do have two funny stories.

1. my mom yelling at me "STOP TALKING ABOUT MUFFINS !" when she was scared we were going to die on the road

2. me asking Kevin who the cutie was at the back of the church and having him say, "You're cousin Jeffrey ....."

3. having a father from Africa perform the service and having no idea what he was saying

apple

Turns out I am leaving tomorrow for Walsenburg
My great uncle died last night so tomorrow we are leaving for a funeral.
Life works out in funny way doesn't it, luckily Garrick couldn't have gone I guess.
I told Anita but I haven't told Ellen :(

Garrick and I haven't spoken since he told me he could not go and last night when my phone was turned off he texted me to see how my weekend was and how my week was. It is funny, no one texts me unless my phone is turned off. Last night I got seven text messages, that is most in a long time.

And now I have replied to all of the text messages and now no one will reply to them. Honestly ...... grrrr ! I don't want to go to school tomorrow, maybe I will be lucky and we'll tomorrow for Walsenburg. We can't stay at our house in Pueblo because my sister is stupido and doesn't have any keys hidden anywhere ... (she is in Ft.Collins for this science thing) and will she come home early for the funeral ? Nope, because my sister does not think that like.

sorry this is so bitchy .......

kidnapping

I have this awesome dress for prom.
I am going with Ellen and Kate
Garrick backed out on me, oh well
Today We asked Jack to prom
we bought this cute princess dress and hung it on his door with a note saying " go to prom with ellen, and wear this" his dad answered the door and we drove off

I saw 21 tonight, it was amazing.
I also watched the last episode of my so called life, it made me cry
I am such a sucker ......

Matt and I have been e-mailing, he'll be home in 5 weeks, I can't wait to see him
Tonight was a good night, thanks ellen and kate !
Oh and last night Ellen and Kate came over and Anita and I had fallen asleep watching a movie, I guess they rang the door bell ten times before my mom answered the door, Anita and I need to drink more caffine or something .... that always happenes. But seriously I'm glad I have them.

WE LOVE JIM STURGIS

2 more weeks before prom.
anyone interested in going with me ?
NO

I brought this upon myself
shiiiit

the end

Last night was the last night for the play. It was a bitter sweet moment, I was really glad I would not have to wear costume make up for awhile but I was sad because I really enjoyed being around so many crazy/cool people. All in all Lil' Abner was a great experience.

After the play Justin invited me to hang out with him,paul, and zach at Village Inn. I was going to go and take Ellen with me but for some reason Ellen was all upset because Justin had not offcially invited her " they don't want me to come they want you to just go with them." I told her that I didn't give a shit if if they just wanted me to go alone I was taking her but "no" instead of eating pancakes her and I sat in my car debating on what to do until I finally told her I was just going to go home.

Zach and I kissed twice this week. On the first night of the play and the second. Oddly enough Zach started flirting with one of the costume/make up girls Erin. I wasn't so upset that he wasn't paying attention to me but that he thought that what he was doing was going to make me want him more. Well last night I gave him hell in the cabin. I told him that I frankly didn't give a damn if he liked Erin he just should really like her and not do it because he wants to piss me off. He told me he likes me and that Erin is just fun flirt. He told me that he misses me flirting hard core with and stuff. I told him that I liked him but I just didn't think him and I were on the same page, he wants this big long relationship and I just want to be attached but not too serious.

After the play Justin and Zach were at my car and the whole time Zach was playing with my jacket and poking my stomach I got ticked off so I got closer to Ellen and Justin and I think Zach finally got the hint. It was just a little play thing, he'll get over it. After a little discussion he started telling me how he was going to ask this girl out " we went out for like two weeks, we never kissed, maybe she'll kiss me now." Honey if you kiss that boy be prepared, it sucks = P

Play practice sucked today (just to let you know)

zach asked me out via text message and i said "no"
i told him we could get to know each other and he asked if we could go on a date but when i gave him a ride home he told me he didn't like anyone alot right now except two juniors. needless to say i was like "wow i am glad i said no to you."
maybe that was his way of making me jealous .... whatever
he was fun to snuggle with (especially when he was wearing his sweater) but after giving him that ride home i realized we have nothing in common, or at least didn't know anything about each other. he had no clue what grade i was in. he has my # so maybe he will call/text me (probably not).

tomorrow i am going to finish my costume, lucy still hasn't shown me my wife outfit. oh yeah i also need a hat ... feeeecccckkkkk

just shoot me now !

maybe ..

Hello old friend
Here is what I have decided

I have decided that I am either going to go to CU, Mesa, or CSU.
When I grow up I am going to be -----------
I am going to marry a hockey player
I am going to get a job

This spring break I went to Pueblo and Denver
The Denver Museum of Art is amazing
So was this dive of a restaurant that we ate at on Saturday
I love my new shirts and jewelry
Today Emily told me I would get " Best Earrings " if that was a category for Senior Favorites :)

So there is this boy, who is younger than me, shorter than me, and doesn't have his license BUT I really like being with him. He has the best amps just to let you know.
mmmmmm .....

funny text of the day
" MEGAN ARE YOU DATING ZACH !"

Only 2 more days !

DWF

I have all of my five lines in the play memorized, my new task is to find some short shorts and an orange halter top. Yeah that is going to be my outfit for the play, my parents are going to be so proud = ) But seriously I am so happy ! My two brothers and sister are coming down to see me in the play. It will be really cool, I guess being in the play is better than doing the lights, acting and singing is great.

I don't have any homework this weekend, my grades are as following
A,A,A,A,B+,B. Yeah Davis give one of your favorite students a B+ ... see if I care, lol. No I deserve it I only get B's on the tests and I haven't turned in an assignment. Don't worry I will get that one up ...... THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID ! sorry I just had a Michael moment, if you have not seen that Office episode LOOK IT UP!

That is what she said

Anita and Ellen came over on Friday,we had so much fun. We ended up staying upstairs and laying on my huge guest bed the whole time. We watched a couple episodes of The Office and then turned on Superbad, yeah that movie was superhilarious. Anita admitted that she had a crush on McLovin, weird. It was really funny but I think I liked watching the second season The Office. The Halloween episode is the best, Dwight looks so effing scary and Jim dresses up as the whole punched version of himself ( he puts three huge black circles on his shirt). Yeah it was a good night, too bad last night was so boring. I ended up watching The Mummy and The Mummy returns until one in the morning. Megan really needs to get a life, too bad no one invited me to a bonfire [inside joke].

Yesterday I had to be a server for this stupid thing at my church. I was surrounded by all these rich old ladies and I was the one that was suppose to serve them their lunch, coffee, tea and water. No one said "thank you." Actually they only time they talked was to complain that I didn't serve them their desert fast enough :: bites tongue:: My mom said a couple of them said I was really pretty and mature for my age, I wasn't sure if that was a compliment considering that most of them probably had bad vision. So I now have officially 3 hours of community service, only 17 to go.

ONE WEEK UNTIL DENVER !

Jim: does that include 'That's what she said.'
Michael : Yes
Jim: wow that is going to be hard ...... I bet you can go all night ... That will satisfy me
Michael : ... THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID

Today was dance hell for me. Seriously I suck at dancing .... but I do like this whole "excercising" thing. I feel so healthy : ) I have math homework and U.S History B homework .... No Bueno

with new hair comes new responsibility

I have to get up everyday to shower my hair ........ bleh

my alarm will be going off at 5:30 but I couldn't sleep so I just woke up and now and checked my e-mail, wow really nerdy I know. I e-mailed Matt and told him about my new look, he said he couldn't picture it and he wondered how I liked it. I was like " It looks really hot according to Tessa ...... it would probably make you get a massive erection if you saw me." Okay that last part was a total lie, but oh well. I really wish he could come see my play, I really think he would be proud.

So guess who texted me last ... Paulthatasshole ! He accidentally "hey did you text me from a different number ?" Three minutes later "Oops different Megan, but how are you ?" I said I was fine and went to sleep and when I woke just now I saw that I had two new texts from him saying that he thinks I am really pretty and he "misses" hanging out with me ..... horny little Paul, haha. He is only talking to me because he likes girls with short hair (I was not aware of this before I cut it) haha.

five more minutes before my alarm goes off ..... I have dos tests today FEEEECK.

hey did you text me from a different number ?

my new hair = awesome

Pretty sure I have so much more confidence (thanks to Tessa and Jared), haha. Pretty sure Virginia was the only one that didn't seem too into the new look, but oh well. While at play practice I got a lot more attention from my husband, he even did that stupid trick where he yawned and "accidentally" but his arm around me. I laughed my ass off. I gave Jack a ride home today and pretty sure him and I had so much fun singing along with "Don't stop believing." I like that kid a lot : )

So Conner is annoying everyone I guess and I really wish he would stop talking about
1.) his hawk
2.) skiiing
He is like a wet blanket and I hope he gets the hint SOON that I am no longer into him. Right now the only boy that I think is attractive is James [story of the day] Today in 20th century world history we had to pick teams for this review thing and I was like " great no one is going to pick me, except micheal." Well ...... James picked me, I thought for sure he would pick Bret but nope, HE PICKED ME ! So now my new project is to seem really unappealing to Conner. Any suggestion on how to get a wet blanket to stop liking you ?

The day after yesterday

First full day with my new hair. This morning I woke up and I had the worst case of helmet hair EVER ! It was hilarious actually :) My hair was dry in like four minutes, I almost cried I was so excited. I can't wait until everyone at school sees me.

Last night was [blank]. I showed up to Conner's house and had to "come inside." I met this parents and his hawk, both were really nice. We got to dinner early and were getting along but by the end of dinner I was really bored. Bored to the point where I asked the waitress if I could have a coloring menu. I just had a salad and a big ol' piece of keylime pie. I ended up watching this cute bus boy at the other tables the whole time. This boy had the cutes red streaked hair,mmmm. Conner saw me looking at bus boy and was like "should I do that to my hair ?" NO ! I cracked jokes about Conner all through dinner and then him and I went and saw a movie, we ended hanging out until twelve. I almost fell asleep driving, which was really scary. Hope everyone had fun !

p.s I love Anita for making me three new mix cd's

new hair !

At nine this morning Megan,my hairdresser cut eleven inches of my hair off. You should have seen the stares as she gathered my hair into a ponytail and went snip,snip. I LOVE MY HAIR It looks full,shiny, and makes me look older. I can either put products in it and make it stick out on the sides or flatten it out. My mom hates it either way. Right when I stepped into the house my mom was like "Dad Megan is home, she looks like a boy." And ladies and gentlemen it didn't stop there she called my brother Brandon and told him I look like Oliver Twist. When I got on the phone to talk to him I was like "Ello Govne." I guess I need humor about this situation :)

Last night I went over to Anita's and she burned me three mix cd's, I was so happy. Her and I watched a couple movies and read me new Spin magazine. Her and I also tried to make hemp bracelets and we have both come to the conclusion that we suck at making things (except scarfs). Her aunt tried making a bracelet and she was really good at it but she stopped when they all started playing poker. I ended up staying there until eleven, it was a good day. Ellen and I also drove to Utah randomly because neither of us wanted to go play practive early, I effing love Ellen.

Tonight Connor and I are going to hang out together : ) I am excited.

My mom bought me white cheddar cheez-its, you know they are the baked snack crackers
mmmmmm .......

New post

My hair is going to look like this ...


Only 1 more day with long hair

Tomorrow I am going to a writers conference at the college and I am really excited, last year I didn't go because I was lame. Tomorrow might be the best Friday I have had in awhile. Anita and I are going to go to the basketball game and then watch a movie at her house :) It has nice having a buddy that lets you chill at their house 24/7. I am not going to do my homework because I won't be at school tomorrow, well maybe I will do a little bit because I really don't want to have to do it all this weekend.

This weekend is White Nights and to be honest I am not sad at all that I am not going ....

king me !

I made Dew fall off his seat today ! We were at the Fruita Library and I put his queen in a bad situation and I was THIS close to getting it away from him but no ... he fall off of his chair and was like " YOU ARE NOT TAKING MY QUEEN !" Pretty sure the librarian was giggling : ) Dew said he was proud of me because I had improved so much, go me.

Tomorrow is Valentines Day. Yeah I will let you know if I get anything .....

freezing

Virginia came over today and we made out city for espanol. Pretty sure at first we decided to just to enough to get a "B" but after two hours of making it we decided we should at least make lable 30 things so we could get a low "A".

Last night Anita and I watched " 10 things I hate about you." Her and I planned on gossiping until eleven but my parents called me at nine and told me to get my butt home, I was pretty sad. I guess her cousin (the scene one) considers me Anita's "hot friend", yeah if only everyone thought that,lol. The whole time I was over at her house I really wished Connor was there so we could cuddle :: awww :: I wanted to watched "Smiley Face" but Anita thought her mom would've freaked out on us, it is pretty risque BUT it is amazing :) I wanted her to come over next weekend but my sister and brother are coming over. I hate it because when they come I can't do anything without them.

I WANT TO TELL CONNOR I LIKE HIM. I want to tell him that I like the fact that he wears glasses, he has a 3.8 gpa, he has a falcon named "bell", he likes the dead kennedys, he has the coolest cross that he wear 24/7, he is just a genuine nice guy ...... I don't think I should tell even thought I want to, because I think that he just wants to be friends, which isn't bad, at least I would have that. A little piece of me wants to make him some cookies for Valentines day but I really don't feel up to it. BOYS ARE SO CONFUSING.

SUNDAYS

Matt emailed me, I emailed him, he emailed me, I emailed him ..... AND NO REPLY ! Yesterday was his birthday and I have a feeling that he did bad stuff and he is probably crashed somewhere (not his bed I bet). Last night I was thinking about him being drunk and hooking up with a girl, it made me so sad I actually starting shedding tears. I heard some crazy things about Ben from Zach and I just feel really weird inside, I love the Hendricks family because they were all good people, I really don't want Matt and Ben to start doing bad stuff because I still care about their well being (so cheesy). Maybe Matt thought that there was nothing to reply to in the email, it is just weird that he sent me one to let me know he had a new email, I thought that maybe that meant he wanted to start talking to me more but I guess not :(

p.s. the spell checker on my blog doesn't work so if there are errors I am sorry.

Call lost

Anita and I are trying to figure out what we are going to do tonight when we hang out. We both agree that we wish that activities are free. Okay I think we are going to go get coffee and make Amy some brownies. I hate it when you want to hang out with someone but you aren't really sure what you want to do or anything. I hate being a poor teenager, it sucks sometimes. So I checked how many people have read my blog and I am slightly disappointed with the number, lol. My blog entries must be decreasing in the entertainment factor, that needs to be changed.

Connor is going cross country skiing today. Yesterday we hung out at lunch together alone and I am getting the "just friends" vibe from him. There is this boy in my spanish class name Zack that I think I might have a crush on but guess what, he likes Virginia WHY GOD WHY ? This is what I get for having hot friends I guess, :)
I feel like taking a nap, last night I stayed up until eleven and I feel extremely tired. See Kate I am capable of staying up pasted nine, are you proud ?

So I now have two GAP hoodies, one blue and one grey (gray ?). I bought some new hairbands too since I am cutting my hair. My mom wants me to donate my hair to locks for love but I have to grow it out a able more inches before I can do that. I think that would be really cool I am just scared to have really really short hair, I think it would make me look childish or something, or it would make me look fatter. Is that possible ? Can hair make you look fatter ?

Happy birthday

Isn't he cute ....
Eisley is an amazing band, i think i am going to cut my hair like one of them, possibly even get a moustache.

[watch it]

BOO !

I have so much homework to do, and stupid me I didn't realize this until after I got home from Ash Wednesday, fuck. I did all of my math homework ( I have a "C" in that class right now ! ), and now I am working on this damn essay for 20th Century World History. I STILL NEED TO DO MY AP LANG ! I know this sounds bad but I think I am going to wait another day to get my AP LANG homework finished, sorry Palmer.

ABC

Tomorrow I have two tests, one in physical science and one in U.S History, BOO !
Today we danced in play practice and wow did I suck :(
I missed Anita and Amy today, neither of them were in APlang.

quote of the day
connor : i eat in the commons because i get to be with you


awww : ) i like you boy, (don't fuck it up please)

watch it, i did and look how i turned out.

no es bueno

I missed school again I woke up at 1:00 a.m. and my mouth was really swollen on my left side, in the exact stop where I got my wisdom teeth pulled. I ended up not being able to sleep so mom and dad let me stay home. I went and saw Dr.Perino (the doctor that did my wisdom teeth pulled), and he was able to releave some of the pressure. Now the only issue is that I have swelling still and I am on a lot of pain meds.

I really wish I could be at Anita's tonight with Marie and Virginia I LOVE YOU GUYS ! you will get your cd I promise virginia, lol.

Tomorrow I am hoping to be 100% better.

Get ready world Megan is going to be back soon.

sick

So I hear I missed out on a very fun play practice damn. While everyone was gettin' their dance on I was sleeping in my bed with five blankets on
:( I really hate getting randomly sick, it makes me mad. I finished most of my homeowork even though I don't feel quite myself, tomorrow will be better. Kelsey Nelson, Kristyn Pults and I are going to ditch Physical Science tomorrow, shhhh. Tomorrow I was suppose to hang out with Anita but instead I have a party for the Girl Scouts, my troop set up the event and some how I think I would get in trouble if I didn't show. This weekend is going to be boring. Connor and I had lunch together and neither of us ended up eating we just talked about really random things, he is actually interesting ::shocked:: Just burned Virginia the soundtrack to Juno, now her and I are going to see "Sticking with you" constantly :) Yeah I know you all are jealous.
Today I finally memorized "Kiss Kiss" all the way. Tomorrow be ready for me to rap it constantly (Tessa and Kate RUN)

What is next ?

Still talking to Connor, today he came up to me before we got in the library and started talking to anita and I and in the library he never sat down he just stood there talking to me ( I decided to stand too). Well tomorrow I am sitting down so if he wants to talk to me he'll have to sit or stand all by himself, haha.

Pretty sure I have two left feet when it comes to dancing :(

Tomorrow I am wearing my bird t-shirt
and my "jessica made" necklace
don't know what shoes yet ...
I am wearing my usual pants ...... dark wash skinny jeans

sorry I am so boring

Weird Day

Connor said "no", surprise surprise BUT he invited to go skiing with him and I was like "we should go out to dinner sometime ...." I gave him my number and he smiled so I think that I might have a date coming in the future : )

Kole kissed me today at play practice, it was really weird [hence the title of this blog]. He air kissed me and I air kissed him and the next thing you know BAM ! His lips touched mine. Afterwards he was like "wtf just happened ....." I turned bright red and this girl I HATE WITH A PASSION started laughing at me (bitch).

Paul is still randomly texting me, I guess he is also texting Lucy (the girl he kissed while still being "make out buddies" with me) and he is also texting Jessica and the girl I hate with a passion. Today I just said that my side of the auditorium was nice and he was like " do you want me over there because you are loose ?" Needless to say I didn't reply ....... boys are annoying. But really cute.

Today Palmer gave me back my essay and said that it was his favorite in the class and was an A+ paper :: smiles ::

rating of the day - 6/10

Ju-NO !

I have been prolonging starting my essay for Palmer and now I am offically screwed. I am suppose to define confusion and ironically enough I am confused on how to write this damn essay. All I feel like doing right now is listening to the soundtrack to JUNO and sleeping. I have a horrible stomach ache right now and trying to focus on an essay is actually making is work. I think I am just stressed out. Tomorrow Connor is suppose to reply to me and I have this bad feeling that in front of everyone tomorrow he is going to tell me "No". I can see why he would say "no" but I will honestly be embarressed. PLEASE DON'T REJECT IN FRONT OF MY FRIENDS ! Just tell me now when we are walking out of the library and no one is with us. Then I can make up an excuse for why you didn't say yes. No one will know I am lying. "Connor is getting his teeth cleaned that day ...... it takes his dad a couple hours because he does such a detailed job ....... he is going to sick that day."

FINALLY

I just won my first chess game against the computer

p.s

My threadless shirt came two days ago, I wore it yesterday. I looked effing HOT !

1/25/08

So today I asked Connor Ryan to White Nights. Here is how is went.
Me : So I think I am going to ask Connor to WW.
Kate :Who is that ?
Marie : Who is that ?
Me : He is sitting right behind you, he is wearing the grey hoodie.
Kate and Marie : Do you guys ever talk ?
Me : Not really, sometimes but I think it would be fun.
Anita : DO IT RIGHT NOW !
[bell rings]
Me : Hey Connor have you ever been a dance ?
Connor : No
Me : Well I think it would be fun to go with you, don't answer me right now, answer me on Monday, sound good ?
Connor : Yeah

I felt really bad for asking him in such a lame way I went to City Market and got him a Hersey's bar and some orbit gum.His dad is my dentist so I decided I should counter balance the chocolate with some gum. If he says "no" boy will it be awkward to get my teeth cleaned, lol. But seriously I won't mind THAT much if he says no.
But lets hope he doesn't : )

Paul replied once to my text, he said he was bored at play practice and was doing good. I asked him something I don't even remember what is was and he never replied. Now I am just thinking that he didn't mean to text me because sometimes I text the wrong person. Like today instead of texting Anita I texted Amy because their names are RIGHT to each other in my phone. Yeah five bucks says Paul was planning on texting a girl with the same first letter of the name. For a minute I thought that he was going to try and be friends with me but I guess not. Virginia said that last
Friday at Taylor's he felt really out of place I sorta feel sorry for him sometimes.

Hung out with Marie and Virginia today. Hanging out with Anita and Amy later.
Tomorrow I might hang out with Stephanie.

l8er

Nazi tres

So I just had this weird dream that Paul made me this really ugly birthday card and put ribbon all over his body to surprise me ..... he also beat me at chess the little bastard. well anyways, I just woke up and guess what I see on my phone " 1 new TXT at 10:41." Guess who it was from ..... P A U L.

Here is what is says " Hey how r ya ?." Wow really fascinating Paul, You can't even spell out "are" ? - 1000000000000000000000 points (Kate D. understands this)

Five bucks says he noticed me at play practice smiling and laughing and was like
" what she isn't still sad about me not liking her ! we'll have to change this." I smiled at him yesterday once, I was hugging Lora and he was RIGHT behind her so I just smiled ........... He tried hitting Jessica yesterday with a play book and I shielded her and was like " Paul she bruises easily." He then tried to hit me but I just walked away with Jack and Jessica to get water.

WHY DID HE TEXT ME ?

comment me and give me some ideas.

No more texting, it is way too complicated.

Had a blast with at Tessa's surprise thingy. I love my friends : ) You guys tell amazing stories and are really funny. Plus you guys smile and let me tell my less interesting/funny stories (thank you). After I dropped Kate and Marie off at their car ( I almost killed them I AM REALLY SORRY) I listened to some really bad rock music and I felt so good. Yeah until I read the last three texts I got from Garrick. I told him that I knew "we" would never happen and I told him why. Some how that boy got in his mind that I am a manuser :cough: and was yelling at me ..... wow really mature there. I HIGHLY doubt that him and I are ever going to talk again. And to tell you the truth I am not sad at all. In the end I told him that him and I just didn't see eye to eye on relationships and not to worry about my views because he isn't single and I am not interested anymore [the end].

Kate is asking Steve, good choice Kate : )
Virginia might be going to Glenwood with some boys this weekend, woo woo.
Marie might be seeing Sweeney Todd with me YAY !

Mark it in the calendars ladies and gentlemen, Megan had another good day.

1/23/08

My Threadless shirt came today, I wearing it right now, and I feel so cool : )

Tomorrow I find out if I failed my math test. I think I did well on my Physical Science test but that was a given, lol.

a few minutes later

I just read all of my past blog entries INSTEAD of doing my math homework, Megan is a horrible student ( who really wants to take a shower)

[Holy Shit]

SO Apparently Heath Leger died today, I mean I didn't see many of his movies, but still .... I feel really bad for his daughter :( I love 10 Things I Hate About You and A Knights Tale. I thought I was having a bad day and then I found that out and suddenly I realized that I am the one that makes me have bad days, I just wish I could break the cycle.
Anita and I are going to have get together tomorrow, her and I are going to vent about boys. Turns out that I am a "cool, interesting, cute girl" YET I am still not as cool as another girl, surprise surprise. I didn't like [him] that much, he wasn't that cute, he was pretty immature but at least for awhile I felt like I actually had someone have a crush on me again. I just like feeling wanted. Virginia and I talked about it and she told me that I should just let it go " the problem is you want a relationship, when you don't care boys notice are more relaxed." Thanks for the advice Virginia ( I will try). I should even care, there is so many other things that I NEED to worry about. Like the fact that I have a test tomorrow in Math and Physical Science.
I want to go to New Zealand
I got assassinated today, it was pretty intense.
I got to be Sophie(Franz Ferdinad's wife)
yup "I" three times in a row, told you that word appears a lot in my blogs.
BAAAAAD habbit

Saturday in Pueblo .... booo !

So I am officially in the worst place in the entire world, my home town. The only things that I can do here is

a. talk to my sister while she is looking for a check in trash
b. go see my 90 year old mean grandmother
c. watch television

Yeah there aren't a lot of things here so I think I am going to read, text, and do some math homework .... wow what a great way to spend a three day weekend



IT IS OFFICIAL MY LIFE SUCKS !

hesh brownies

So today Lora found out that my ass is really ticklish. My dad started out horribly. My bento box spilled soy sauce all over my car AND I almost ran out of gas. Thank God I have awesome parents. My dad brought me a different back pack and twenty dollars so I could get gas.
My dad actually went really well after that. I found out that I ended up getting a B in AP and a A- in Spanish. I totally thought I got a C and a B.
Play practice went really well, I love being on stage but I think I am actually going to miss not programming the lights and stuff, I felt like such a pro and now I am a amateur again :: sad face :: Today we blocked for a scene and when we were suppose to be murmuring to each other Jessica, Lora and I were like " Shut the hesh up you little slut." When I am around them I get so crazy : )
Tomorrow is Friday, just thought I should let you guys know.


Yes Kate I know nine is not late, but I FEELS LATE TO ME ! I am not cool enough to stay up later, unless I am hanging out with friends, texting, reading, or watching a movie. Which I rarely do on the week nights. I AM A WUSS !

she wants some lovey dovey, that kiss kiss

Lil Abner

My nails are newly painted. Yes my life is that boring that I am blogging about my nails, they are purple = )
I am starting to wash my own clothes and I realized today that I have six pairs of the same pants and that most of the my wardrobes consist of a sweater thing and a threadless shirt. I should really get a new look ...... my hair looks horrible = (
I haven't started my math yet, but I will be up for awhile because I think I sleep better when I stay up later.Mind you I think nine thirty is late.
Reminder for self : I need to check out "Breakfast of Champions", and return "The Last of the Mohicans."
I have discovered a cute boy in my World History 20th century class, he is ubber quiet and he works at Circuit City, too bad all my gift cards are for Best Buy.haha.
Gosh it is only 7:30 and I am tired .....

Kinks

"Juno" is the best movie ever ! Marie,Kate and I went at 10:30 p.m. I now have so many witty things to say from that movie " You should go to China, I hear they give away babies like free ipods", " you hear Juno pregnant .... you hear it's yours .... you should grow a moustache", " i still have your underwear ..... i still have your virginity." Go see Juno !
So Garrick and I have been texting non stop for the past couple weeks and tomorrow we had this really fun day planned out but sadly his parents are taking him up to Powderhorn and I guess and he forgot about it, grrr. He doesn't like the "Blair Witch Project", that really makes me upset,like he HATES that movie. I guess it's only fair thought because I told him that he shouldn't watch so many action flicks,haha. Lets see if this week we text a lot too.
I can't do anything next weekend because my parents have decided that it's time to do to Pueblo,Colorado .... shiiiiiiiit. Wanna know what that means.

1.) Mom and Dad will get in huge fight
2.) We have to Walsenburg and see my grandma,aunt,and uncle
3.) Mom will cry constantly
4.) Our old house will be trashed as usual (my sister lives there)

And to top off this fun event my sister won't even be there, she will be in Denver. I AM GOING TO DIE OF BOREDOM !
Ended up not going to Sweater fest, turns all my sweaters are in the wash. Plus I tend to not know many people at the Bistro and I just can't hang out with Dewey because talking to him on msn is totally different than hanging out with him public.
Today was fun, Stephanie, Virginia, and I went and painted pottery and Kate brought cream soda and snacks. IT WAS SO MUCH FUN.

[pop]

I am a wife, that's right ladies of gentlemen MEGAN GOT INTO THE PLAY ! Sure it isn't a big part but oh well, I am really part of it now ...... : )
Tonight I am going to see "Juno" at ten thirty with Marie and Kate Connor, pretty sweet. Except I am really bored right now because I have nothing to do, I'm already ready, I put make up on and did my hair but it is pretty much pointless for me to look "cute" because well ..... I HIGHLY doubt there will be cute boys there.
Tomorrow Dewey invited me to sweater feast, I am not sure if I will go though because I have this argyle button sweater and I'm not sure that is really considered a "sweater". That would be the ultimate embarrassment, wearing the wrong kind of sweater to a sweater feast,lol.
Megan is sleepy ..

Meters

I auditioned for the play today. Mr. Repke and Mr.Palmer whispering to each other made me really nervous but i did get to dry read for a part, it was for "Mammy". haha, I don't think I got that role though because I talked too fast but oh well. (Please say I get into the chorus God)
Garrick texted me today, four days ago him and i saw a movie and i just need to say this he would not shut up ! Honestly he spent the whole two hours ruining the movie for me .......... he hasn't texted me back though and I'm sad so I don't know what that is all about.
Right now I am watching "The Drug Years" on VH1, it's the best drug documentary ever ! I really wish I could have gone to Coldstones but my mom was like " Do you want me to be alone ?" I hate when parents pull that.
Soon I should start my homework ..... just not now.
Matt e-mailed twice yesterday the first one asked me about my face and the second was if I had a lot of fun getting my wisdom teeth pulled ......... idiot !

I WANT TO SEE JUNO !
I WANT TO HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE AGAIN !

Jenner

I got to keep my wisdom teeth ! I know this sounds really weird but I think I am going to keep them in my purse so I can show them off to everyone. Hey maybe that would be a good ice breaker if I am around some cuties ... " Hey look up these [wipes out bag of wisdom teeth]." Nah ..... lol.

My brother is coming from Denver today to pick up his dog Zoe. She is a pit bull/german shepard. She looks more like a german shepard except for that fact that she has no tail because the breeders cut it off, isn't that sad ? I can't wait to show him my bento boxes.

The weather outside is really really cold, I don't think I am going to go outside. Unless someone calls and invites me to see Juno, then I will suck it up and go, I really want to see that movie.

Americas Next Top Model is on today I love watching that show so much, a few days ago Amy and I were texting and then she told me to watch Hannah Montana. I have to admit that show is a little but entertaing [hangs head down in shame].

I will blog when something interesting happens, hahah.

B-e-n-t-o

here are my bento boxes = )

no more wisdom

Today at 1:00 I got my wisdom teeth pulled. My parents bought me a milk shake afterwards and the shake got all over my face because my mouth was so numb. I slept from three to six and now my mouth is 70 % normal. Good news, my sister is giving me BOTH of the bento boxes, I can't wait till school starts so I can show them off to everyone. Last night I saw Sweeney Todd and OMG ! That movie turned out to be really really violent. I felt so mature being able to get into the movie all by myself. It is good to be seventeen.

I forgot to tell you guys. Matt came over on New years eve to clear up a rumor that I heard. Conrad Laga told me that Matt was trying to get with girls at CU but that he has "ruined his chances with the girl from facebook." I got really upset so I e-mailed Matt and told him that he should at least tell me seeing as I told him about Paul. Turns out all it was a crush on a girl named Allie in his writing class. He said he knew he was never going to date her but to shut Conard up because he always makes fun of Matt for not having a girlfriend Matt lied and said he ruined it. I guess Allie didn't like Matt and has a boyfriend. Well Matt e-mailed me back and told me he liked me still but he couldn't handle having a long distance relationship and he needed to experience other things seeing as I was his first girlfriend. He was like " my thing was innocent, I didn't kiss her like you kissed Paul." I think he was shocked that I hooked up with someone, which made me smile because now he knows for sure that I am not waiting around for him. Well he came over and he tried putting his arms around me but he chickened out. But while I was showing him how to knit he finally put his arms around me and starting kissing me. We made out for awhile and then Matt was like " maybe this isn't a good idea." I told him to shut up and kiss me and not to worry, I told him we both needed to get some of our sexually frustration out. It is funny thought because after we made out I felt like I am over him now. He cut his hair and he looks really strange but I still think he is gorgeous. I'm glad he still likes me, and who knows maybe we will end being together but for now we are just people that like each other. I need me time. This year I need to focus on grades and weight. My goal is to get down to 115 pounds. Right now I weight around 127 pounds.

On Saturday I am going bowling with Garrick, Amy, and Misske. I was brave and even set it up, I hope all goes well.

Pray that tomorrow I don't feel pain .....
fyi laughing gas is the shits ......

not so happy new years

Last night I had fun at Tessa's house even though I had to leave early because my parents didn't really want me to spend the night, mostly because my mom was really sick last night. I got home around 11:22 and just went straight to bed and this morning I woke up in a funk. Turns out I can't go to the movies with Amy, Garrick, and Misske because I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled out on Thursday and I thought that I was getting my teeth pulled out today [hits self] honestly I am so stupid sometimes.

My sister went home today without her scarf, I tried as hard as I could to finish it in three days but you can only knit for so long before you get tired. I feel like such a lazy bum right now, I am watching television and drinking tea ........

Anita might have some people go bowling with her this weekend and I am really excited because I really want to hang out with people. I am so depressed that I am getting my wisdom teeth pulled on the day that I am suppose to hang out with Garrick and Amy. I texted Garrick and wished him a happy new years but he didn't reply. Oh well.

My bento boxes haven't come yet = (
oh and Tessa my last entry was a line from a rap song ..... I like it