GOOD GIRLS GOTTA GET DOWN WITH THE GANGSTAS !

new post !

things I got for christmas

- shoes (early christmas gift from mom
- $ 50 for best buy from kevin, uncle tony, and aunt sylvia
- smart wool socks
- a dead kennedy's cd
- bento box ( a polka dot one or a rabbit one)
- gift card to Target
- 2 lips glosses
- earrings


I am down with something, I got it the day school ended and yesterday I felt like crap and tonight .... I puked a couple times (not pretty). I hope tomorrow I feel better and sound better. bleh. I have been listening to my new cd 24/7. I really want some more of TDK's stuff .. there is something about them that makes me love them = )

Got some new yarn, my new scarf is going to be fucking incredible !

salad FEED ME

I love Boulder [period]

Kevin took us there for a couple hours and we went to this amazing restaurant that just serves salad. I got the Edgar Allen Poe and boy was it tasty, I wanted to lick the bowl but my sister said that would embarrass her. I think Kristen bought me a cd today at Borders, I hope she got the Dead Kennedy's. I know she did't get me the Bento, I am so pissed at her, I am half tempted to return some of her gifts. I know that is horrible but I REALLY wanted that japanese lunch box = (

The boys in Boulder are hott. While we were at Border's I guess my mom and dad saw a girl that looked exactly like me. They both went up to her and my mom even put her arm around her, awkward.

My grandma is coming over today, pray for me.
I need to buy more clothes.

History Channel

One day till Christmas !

I have been in Denver for three days. The first day we picked my brother up at DIA at 11:00 p.m., he went on a vacation with Julie to the Virgin Islands. Yesterday, which was my mom's birthday, Kevin took me to the Flat Irons so I could buy Christmas presents for my sister. Him and I had so much fun, we went to the this candle store and one of the ladies was like " DON"T SMELL THE ACTUALLY SMELL THE LID ! " She even pointed to a sign that said that. Needless to say we started smelling lid AND the candle just to piss the lady off. I swear some people are so touchy.

My sister is house sitting my other brother's house and last night my mom spent the night with her last night and they said they would be over thirty minutes ago. I want my Starbucks, lol. Kristen and mom said they would bring over coffee and I am really thirsty. I am still a little sick, my nose is all red but at least I don't have a sore throat anymore. Sora throats are the worse !

Amy's party was a blast ! We played ping pong, twister, and hockey. Her parents are really nice and their was so inviting. When I get home I am going over there and AMy and I are going to give Garrick his Christmas present = )

Merry Christmas everyone .

No more school for me

Today was the last day of school before Christmas break, Thank you Jesus ! It was pretty uneventful ... Kate loved her toy gun [happy]. I guess my secret Santa will give me my present tonight @ Amy's, I wonder what it will be. I don't really want to go tonight actually, I am really sleepy, and really sick. I want to go, but I don't know if I am up to it.
Tomorrow I am leaving for Denver, I need to do some laundry AND I need to find something to buy my sister (who has me I guess). You see yesterday my mom bought me this awesome shoes, they were on my christmas list and I guess my sister bought them for me already so today my sister called and was like "what can I get Megan ?" YOU ARE STUPID KRISTEN ! I have a list of things I want, I want a mr. bento, I want two cd's, I want Harry Potter ! sometimes I really hate my family, they need to learn how to listen.
All today I thought about kissing Matt, I would randomly go off into space and think about him ..... Megan is a horrible person, instead of watching "The Grinch" I thought about Matt for 95 minutes. Megan really needs to get a kiss, too bad Garrick won't be there tonight = (

booger

I have to finish my math final today and the rest of the my AP final. I can't get anyuthing less than B's in both of those classes so I didn't study that hard for them .. oops. Last night instead of studying I went over to Matt's for thirty minutes, we did some flirting ... I REALLY wanted to kiss him but his whole family was around so I was like " when I get home from Denver I am going to get myself some Matt ... " He acts like he still likes me, he does that thing were he teases me because he knows I will want to fight him. Yesterday when we huggged I touched his stomach and HOLY SHIT ! HE has like ..... even harder abs [orgasms]. I wish he wasn't so God Damn Attractive, and sweet, and funny. Haha. Tonight is Amy's part, and at lunch today we are doing our Secret Santa ( I bought mine a gun). TOY GUN.

stockings

Well I went to Target and bought my sister a gift and I helped Amy Christmas shop. Her and I decided to buy Garrick a combined present so we bought him milk duds, hot tamales, peeps, and sweet tarts. We were going to buy him bod man spray but after Amy sprayed us both with it we decided we'd kill ourselves if Garrick started wearing that stuff. It smells so bad ! Carmel's mom saw Garrick and I talking and I guess she told Carmel that we had the "look" so now Carmel is convinced that Garrick likes me, even though the only things he has told Amy about me is "I had fun with Megan last night" and "we have a lot in common". I hope on friday, if he comes to Amy party he at least ignores me so I know he isn't interested.

Just got off the phone with MH, he e-mailed me and told me he was in town. I guess he came to school today for lunch, he didn't try to see me, which doesn't surprise me. But I still decided to call him .... we talked for a while until Kathy told him he hasn't spent enough time with her yet, Jesus. I think I might be going over there tomorrow to get a cd from him, unless he bails out on me, which if he does, oh well ...... I am sick of caring about other people. Maybe it is the cold that I have or maybe the fact that I just hate finals but I really really dislike life right now [shoot me please]

parents

I had a blast hanging out with Garrick and Amy. Sure I lost at bowling and had to buy them both ice cream but OMG! it was so much fun. I had to drive Garrick around because Amy is a good girl and didn't want to get in trouble. After we ate ice cream at Coldstone's I had to take Garrick back to Gj Scores so his parents could pick him up and it was so precious, he could tell I was cold so he gave me his hoodie, and when his parents came he gave me a hug [smiles] I don't think he likes me but he was like "[hug] it was great seeeing you again."
BUT
When I got i went downstairs to chat with my parents and OMG! I flipped my cellphone open to text Amy and my parents flipped out ! My mom started saying that I don't help out enough and that I seem like I am hiding something, parents are so annoying. That is why I am upstairs, alone.


Well I am texting Amy right now and I guess Garrick always gives girls his jacket, I don't feel special anymore = ( oh well

= )

My hair looks amazing ! I loved it because everyone actually noticed that I cut my hair, I felt really special. The play went well last night. Afterwards I went over to Ellen's ( her house is amazing ) and we watched this crazy movie about transvestites in the Australian outback ....... Kristin and Derick showed up an hour later *cough* and they cuddles the whole time. I guess Kristin's philosophy is that if I have a make out buddy she should have a cuddle buddy. I think that is really funny because I don't have a make out buddy, Paul and I kissed twice last week and it won't happen anymore. He did the same thing with Lucy this week I guess but on Saturday when she went to Chinese food he came to V.I. with me. Half way through the meal he put his arm around me and asked if I wanted to hang out but my better judgement told me to decline, which I did. At five Amy and I are going to go hang out with Garrick, God I am so excited ..... I am going to wear skinny jeans, a white long sleeved shirt, and my new red jacket. I am also going to wear my pretty grey scarf = )


cross your fingers that all goes well

HAIR !

Today I am getting a hair cut and I want my bangs to look like this. I am so excited to see what the ladies do to my hair. I am not going to dye it orange like the picture but I want those kinds of bangs and the layers. [excited]. Last night I e-mailed Matt and told him to make a chart of all the negatives and positives of moving in with each group. I guess his mom said the same thing to him, lol. I hope mom gets home in time to take me to my appointment, I feel like hanging out with her.

p.s

[being hot isn't the most important thing]

I just don't know his personality yet so I just like "he's hot." I guess he is Catholic ........ hmmmm

toast

Amy has this really cute friend that is homeschooled

- 1 point

He is HOTT

+ 2000

but .. he listens to Slip Knot

- 6000000000000000000000000000000000000000


BUT he is hot, so I think I am going to invite him to hang out with Amy and I.

<3

Friday

Today ended well. I ended up going to Village Inn and Ellen and I had fun. Except I was right next to Joe who talked about video games the whole time (it got annoying). Christian was drunk off his ass and I was like ..... "haha loser !." He fell into the trophy case AND he started talking to Kayla and Tessa ....

Christian : Kayla you talked shit about Kole, but I loved operating on you in M*A*S*H .... I AM IN MR.PALMER'S CLASS !!!!


While at VI Paul sat next to me and fed my really really buttery toast that was ridiculously hard to swallow. Paul and I were looking at each other because we were bothing eating the toast and were like [chewing] "it won't go down !" Finally I had to take a HUGE swig of water, lol. Tomorrow is the cast party, WEEE !

I think Kristen and I are bipolar. I love Ellen, a lot.

Fuck School

Right now it is 12:40 and I am sitting at home, drinking grape juice, eating jerky,composing my Christmas list, and watching this show that is counting down the best songs of 2007. KANYA WEST DESERVED TO BE IN THE TOP FIVE !

wanna see my Christmas list ?
1.) bento box
2.) boating shoes
3.) dead kennedys cd or paramore's second cd "Riot"
4.) $
5.) threadless gift card
6.) harry potter movies
I have a feeling that I will be getting the Paramore cd instead of dead kennedys because TDK are punk and that probably freaks my family out ..... I can't wait till they see me once I turn eighteen [wuhahaha].

I really don't want to go to play practice today ... positive attitude Megan, positive attitude Megan ...

Mom has been on the phone the whole time I have been home, I wanted her to go with me and buy some food but I think I will have to go by myself .... she is talking to my aunt Silvia (who she doesn't even like)

moccassins

Grace wore my moccasin's last night when her and Derick were in their snow ball fight outside and now my shoes look like crap. ARRGH ! I love how she told me she wore them AFTER she took them outside .. AFTER I COULD HAVE SAID NO !!!


Mom and I are going shopping today for some new winter clothes for me = ) I am excited. ... I need to work on homework but that can wait because well. I love buying new clothes. = )

Um ...

Kristin's carpet is really wet right now. All of us were chill until Grace and Derick got into this huge fight thingy which involved a lot of slapping, snow balls, sharpies, and this HUGE chunk of gross snow ...... I was so glad that Kate D. showed up, and later Virginia, without them I would've gone crazy ! no offense it was fun BEFORE things got out of hand. Jared and Conrad tried drawing penis's on my car and then Courtney and Conrad got in a fight .... again. Maybe I should have stayed home and been with mi familiar.

Saturday

This morning I woke up at five fifteen and left at five forty for play practice. It went really well and we found someone to do the sounds for us. KRISTEN HALL ! Tonight she is having a Christmas party and I am so excited ....

I will get on when I get home and tell you guys if the party lived up to my expectations.

17 ?

Who wants to go see this movie with me ?

teenagers

I am a teenager, therefore I am insane.
I saw The Golden Compass with Kristen and Tessa and it sucked ....
But I like being with my friends so it was worth it.

I wish I could've been two places at once.
I want to hang out with Kate D. and Virginia too !


Like I said before I am a teenager, we do and say stupid stuff

nazi dos

I woke up thirty minutes ago and can't stop thinking about how much I fucked up and I can't BELIEVE I actually bought Paul's line that he wasn't just after the affection. Well apparently that was a whole big line because he never texted me back.[ not so shocked face]. I honestly thought that maybe he would be better than that but I guess not. Tomorrow I am taking Mrs. Beren's advice and telling him " Paul, I am not trying to be in a relationship with you. Wednesday night I was just trying to do something out of the norm for me ... I just had no idea that you would start acting so strange. This whole doesn't make me look half as bad as it makes you look since you told me that I could trust you and now you are acting like the stereotypical asshole." Now I am starting to realize that Kole was probably just joking when he said that Paul wanted me yesterday during play practice ...... and when Paul said good bye to me he probably just did it because that ass thinks I like him ..... I mean I liked him enough to make out with him from 6:00-9:30 but JESUS those few hours of hormone bliss is so not worth the after math. When Matt gets home for the holidays I probably shouldn't see him, if I saw him I'd probably tell him, which would make him feel awkward. I guess right now all I want him to tell me it was just a foolish momentary relapse of judegment and not to worry about it, I want him to reassure me that not all boys are just in it so they can tell everyone and just feel good for a couple hours. But if I did tell Matt he would probably just be like "oh okay ..." I DO NOT UNDERSTAND BOYS !! Now I can't wait for school, I can't wait to tell Paul off. God it will feel so good to just tell him what is on my mind ..... I can't believe that I actually thought that there was a chance that him and I would start something, and when I say something I thought that we'd just make out with each other every couple of weeks. but no, he had to go and make this whole thing a mistake. I guess I should feel grateful that he hasn't tried making me sound like a slut (please tell me that isn't coming tomorrow).


Well Ladies and Gentlemen, when I get home from school hopefully I will have the pleasure of writing down that I told Paul off and it made him feel like shit.

Nazi

Today was awkward. I had Kristen and Virginia dragged into my love life (along with most of the drama kids). The dude and I only talked twice today and it consisted of him trying to scare/kill me, and him telling me "good bye megan." I don't see why he is making this so weird between us considering that in no way did I give him the impression that I wanted a relationship.

so where do we go from here ?

I decided to text him .... we texted for a little bit but then he was like "hey i'll text you in a bit." When boys say that it is a bad sign ...... Oh well.



at least I had a good night last night = P

um ..

Megan had an interesting day. It was so weird that I can't even talk about it.
I wish someone would pick up their phone so I could talk them about it BUT she isn't suppose to have a phone DAMN IT !

lucky sweater

Today was really interesting. I learned about imaginary numbers in math, " the square root of negative one equals i". I felt like such a nerd, here I was getting all excited about math wearing a cardigan, glasses, and a plaid scarf. I love math class though, I get to talk to Jeff. Today he brought me his favorite tea, I am so having some with my breakfast tomorrow = )
Tonight I had a National Honors Society meeting, I felt really awkward because I was wearing this really ugly hoodie with fuzz all over it [puts head down]. It was really warm .... that is my excuse, haha. After the meeting I spent thirty minutes in Kate's car telling her about my boy "issues", I can't call them problems just yet. Let's just say that I am getting signals from two guys and I'm not sure if they are being serious or if I am just fun to flirt with. which isnt' a bad thing. Kate and I decided that I just lay low for a couple days and see if either of them try to talk to me, I hope they both do, I really think it would be fun if I was being fought ever.[ won't happen in a million years though].
Funny story. While I was talking to Jessica and Kayla this boy named Conrad came up to us and he put his elbow on my boob and was like " damn I thought that was your shoulder !." I was like "yeah sure ....". I guess I turned red (who wouldn't) and Jessica and Kayla were laughing their asses off because I just looked at Conrad like "you perv ...". I can't wait to see how he acts around me tomorrow. I swear boys have no control over their own body.
Tomorrow I am wearing my new Threadless shirt [weeee].
Saturday I am spending the night at Kristen's !

Today was a good day, thank you world !

music is where i'd like you touch

The band is CSS, and no they didn't name themselve after the video game. My favorite song by them is called "music is my hot,hot sex", yeah I know .. it's a pretty amazing title. Anyone reading this should check the song on itunes and buy it for .99cents. It will be the best money you have ever spent.

So I guess Drew and Hillary went on their first date last night [awwww]. I am so happy for him. Emma saw them at the Parade of lights and I guess they were holding hands and Drew was all smiley. God I miss those days, haha. Not really actually I am having a good time not having to deal with boys. Pretty sure that right now the only real reason I am slightly upset is that I am losing my kissing techniques.

My mom thinks that I need to stop staying home all the time. I mean it probably does look bad that I am always upstairs. Usually I am ......

a. reading
b. doing homework
c. watching movies
d. on my laptop
e. listening to music

While I was at Target with my mom I ran into Emma, and I saw a certain someone .... I saw him with the usual person, duh. I seriously don't know what I see in that boy, I really wish I would just be like "Yo, you are a loser." Mr. Berens says I shouldn't like him because he looks like his mother (She met his mother at parent teacher conferences.)

I started my essay for Humanities, it is about lithography and so far I have a half page finished (is isn't even double-spaced yet.) I finished my nine math problems earlier today so right now I am just reading about lithography and might start reading my other book for awhile (even though it can be boring sometimes.)

I made my famous pasta today for lunch, I'll probably just eat that for dinner tonight. I swear my mom needs to hide the pasta from me, I love pasta. Some are addicted to drugs, sex, and alcohol but me .... I AM ADDICTED TO PASTA

AZ

Three cheers for Tessa's recent blog, it was very amusing to read.
My Threadless shirt came on Friday so guess what I am going to do tomorrow ...
WEAR IT !
Yesterday my mom and I watched V for Vendetta
The Guy Fawkes mask scared the shit out of my mom and all she could say about the movie was " Oh my God he looks like he is smiling 24/7 .... "
When Eve kissed him I had this whole flash back to the movie Revenge of the Nerds
I'm sorry but I couldn't kiss anyone who was wearing a mask .. I would be like
" yeah you say you are [insert name] but how do i really know ...... "
Megan is really hungry for good chocolate, and some pasta .....
Mmmmm choclate and pasta [contemplates going to the store]

[ fifteen minutes later]

I went to the store and got hot dogs, pasta, red peppers, and arizona tea BUT NO CHOCOLATE !

I saw the cute bag boy ... [giggles]

and my parents wonder why I love Albertson's so much

gimme an A

So I spelled "Atonement" wrong, I spelled it with two t's, I suck. haha.
I am only on page 52 right now but so far it is ... interesting.
It is really windy outside, really really windy. I feel like watching a musical right now, hmmmm ... Do I dare go outside ?


[nah]

hide my laptop from me

Got back from the mall an hour ago and I now have a complete idea of what I am going to buy my loving sister.

1. puff the magic book
2. a snow white ornament
3. an itunes gift card
4. a warm scarf
5. a pretty basket for all of her gifts
6. the first season of Psych

Jesus Christ I hate when you are on a website and it randomly starts playing clips and music .... i almost peed my pants. Well anyways .... I drove around for awhile by myself, I went from the mall to around S.Broadway and then my two favorite songs of all time started playing while i had my ipod set to shuffle so I drove around until they finished playing. I am getting really good at driving around town except I am still chicken to drive around Horizon Drive, I don't know what it is about that place but I am so scared that I'll get lost or get killed in a car accident.
[ I have a pretty insane imagination]
While I as at the mall I said hi to Misske, it actually wasn't so bad being alone. Except that people at the stores always seem to want to talk to you more since you have no else to chat with. For awhile I went and looked at pretty jewlery. I wish I was older so it wouldn't look so weird. I mean a 17-year-old looking at diamond rings, alone, is a little weird. ( I bet the lady working thought I was younger). People always seem to think that I am younger than I really am. I think it is my hair, my hair does look really young(ish).
Mom and dad seem to be in better moods with eachother since my dad fixed the light in the kitchen.



= /


I am counting down the days until I don't have to live with them anymore
[ secret of the day.
Sometimes when I am driving around I put what ever ring I am wearing on my wedding ring finger just see what it looks like.

8:59

Woke up today at seven and I drank some chai tea.
Yesterday Mr. Palmer fixed the lights WEE WEE ! I was so proud of him because he usually gets really frustrated and leaves but no he stuck it out and with help from the manuel he was able to figure how to fix the light board. He erased everything on the memory. Starting Monday I am going to start setting cues ( I hope Ellen can help me). I feel bad because when she comes to help me we end up not having anything to do, oops.

I feel like going Christmas shopping today, this year the only person I have to shop for is my sister. I have a few ideas but I think I need some time wandering in the mall just to keep my options open. Right now she is really into t-shirts that say cute/random things. We were looking in this magazine and she found this shirt that has this picture of sushi rolls and above the picture is says "this is how we roll". Now personally I don't think that is THAT funny but oh my jesus Kristen starting laughing so much. So yeah .. [shakes head] Other than that I don't have a clue on what else I should buy her. She likes music but she already has all the music she wants I think. I could buy her some kitchen things but they would most likely end up in her closet unused.[ starts biting nails]. The rule is you have to spend a hundred dollars on your person because the presents you are giving them are the only ones they are getting. hmmmm ....
1. a cute t-shirt
2. My So-Called Life series on dvd
3. a small "purse Bible" [lame but I know she would love that]
4. really pretty chop sticks
5. a really smelly ugly air freshner [ gag gift duh]

Okay so maybe I am good space, I just need to go out and buy the stuff now, lol.

Mom and Dad got in this MONSTEROUS "discussion" earlier today, I love how they call them "discussions". My mom is upset that she doesn't have a lot of closet space [no joke] that is why she is so upset, plus she feels like my dad doesn't like her anymore. I feel sorry for my dad he always get blamed for really stupid shit from my mom. I totally knew that my mom was in a bad mood because when I woke up she was cleaing her room. She rarely cleans early in the morning unless she is upset so I was like "fuck mom is in a bad mood." Dad was suppose to be in Silverthorne but instead he decided not to because of the wheather, I bet he regrets that decision now. When they get into these moods I am so grateful that I have my license because I don't have to stay and listen.

Except today it is really cold outside so I have no idea where I want to go. I could go shopping alone but I always feel really bogus shopping alone on Saturdays ( I also hate eating alone at places). Earlier this month I went to Juice Stop alone and I felt like everyone was staring at me while I was sitting down and waiting for my smoothie. Finally I took out my zombie book and started reading it, after that I felt a little bit better.

I have an essay to write for Humanities but right now I am not in the mood to actually do anything protuctive. I really feel like going to Albertsons and striking up a conversation with the cute bag boy/cart boy. He always looks so cute when he is gathering carts because he actually wears the little orange vest [ahhh]. I looked him up in the yearbook and he should be a senior this year but I haven't seen him at school this year, maybe he goes to Junction ..... I might go later to pick up the stuff I need for my pasta that I make. I think I'll cook for my parents today.

Things I should do today

1. read Attonement
2. buy some food
3. go to the mall
4. decided whether or not I am going to text Jeff
5. brush my teeth and get dressed (this should be number one)
6. drive around aimlessly
7. watch "Fat Camp 2"