bag pipes

last night i talked to matt # 1 on aim. it started out good but then we started talking ( i brought it up ) about other girls and other boys and i'm pretty sure that matt thinks i want him to get a girlfriend ..... i want to e-mail him and be like I DIDN'T MEAN IT PLEASE DON'T ! but seeing as he hasn't replied to me reply e-mail i'm thinking he is either busy, with friends, or with his new found lady friend that he wen to elementary school with i am really jealous and want to go beat her up !

i scored a 78% on my math test, ouch.
but i am redoing it so it'll be alright
right now i am redoing my U.S History notebook since i got raspberry juice all over it.

[ megan is lame, and megan is missing being in a relationship ]

perdon senor and senorita

matt # 1 got aim again ! so if we get on at the same time we'll get to talk [smiles]

paso a paso

today was a good day

i aced my U.S History quiz and i thought i looked hot in my new shirt ... manana i am going to wear my new bird shirt YAY ! the lunar ecplise this morning was very cool, sure i only stayed up to watch the moon be have gone but still it was effing awesome . i am joining key club i think .... and i am going to try out for all state for choir AND maybe do the lights for the school play.

i love my new shirts ..... and my friends ..... and chocolate preztels and raspberries.

the grass is so fucking green

i love spanish !

and everyone in class knows i do, lets just say i kicked arse at the pointing game ( i am so good ). i also did fairly well on my second page of homework, the first page i didn't do any of the problems but oh well i'll get it done eventually. i now know why Matt # 2 talks to me, he thinks i am the "smart girl " he only talks to me when it involves school [lame]. you'd think he'd comment on my glow in the dark shirt but nope ... nada .. nil [ again lame ]

psssh any boy that doesn't think my glow in the dark shirt is cool is not the right guy for me. i bet rupert would love it.

Target

so i realized why matt didn't personalize that e-mail, he sent it two his dad and to brent. no wonder he didn't ask me anything, it wasn't just to me. so i guess i can't be as mad at him. i'll still be a little miffed but just because i'm just in that mood. i did remember today that he wrote me a song ...... i'm a bitch sometimes.


i got some new shirts.

screw you brand new

well today i got an e-mail all about your cool new friends from across the hall and oh yeah the fact that you are going to a concert featuring BRAND NEW on the 26th OF OCTOBER which happens to be on friday which would oh i don't be really fun to go to, but like you have brains to even think about asking if i would like to go.

hope you and your new boyfriends have an awesome time, who knows maybe one of them will become your life partner, i just hope you warn him that kissing flares up your asthma causing you throat to make weird noises.


megan is a bitch, and megan really hates guys.

tis been a boring day

so today i slept from one to four, watched a lame VH1 countdown, ate some cheese and crackers, and read some.

it has offically been really boring.

i didn't do any of my homework, i am banking on doing all of that tomorrow. after i go to church of course, bleh .... i pissed my pastor off at church but my mom still wants me to go and "support jesus' kids " thats what i get for having a sundday school teacher for a mom .......

tale of the two matt's

i found out that boys name, it's Matt. lol.



how freaking ironic is that ? when one matt's leave God gives me another one. this one is very polite he actually said "thank you" when i opened the door for us. sure we didn't talk all that day except for that but oh well. i think he talked to me on thursday so much because i was the showed interest in talking to him, i asked to borrow his book and stuff. on monday ( hopefully after my chin pimple has gone down in redness and in size) i am planning on talking to him again. my horoscopes says i am going to fall in love, but it won't happen how i think it will so that will be interesting to see if that really happens. the other Matt, Matt # 1 e-mailed me a quick message before breakfast and said he'd e-mail me again when he wasn't hungry, lol.



so today i feel like shit, and will most likely stay in the guest bedroom with my laptop, books, chai tea, and a marathon of "What Not To Wear".



last night i went to the movies under the stars with some friends and they came over and watched Driving Lessons with me. i now am in love with Rupert Grint, he is the sexiest normal looking boy i have ever seen. Mmmmmm .

WARNING !

there is temptation

for the past four days i have been eyeing this boy in my US History class and today a couple of my friends saw him and when i told them i had a class with him they all wanted to know his name and know if i had talked to him. me being shy said no and RIGHT after i had that conversation guess what happened ...... he noticed me. i was studying for our map test and he looked over at me and gave this really really cute giggle ... now at this point i am thinking " oh my God he is making fun of my earrings and shoes .... they match and are both leapard print ... shit " but then after that he started talking to me and suddenly i turned into this lame girl telling this attractive boy about lame tricks to remember states and capitals " new hampshire's capital is Concord think about grapes ! " now at this point he is laughing and he has an amazing smile ....... but all my hopes crashed down really quickly when he started talking to this boy about the cute girls he met this summer ( one of them has the name Megan too so i think that is sign .... )


but .....

i think i am just replacing something i just lost and i really don't think that is right, specially since i have only had one conversation with this no named boy. Matt e-mailed me back (it was really short ) and he didn't even comment on anything i wrote except for " lol " wow .... bleh

he met some boys to hang out with, and you know what that means, those boys will introduce him to their friends (that will probably be girls ) and then i won't have a long distance relationship i'll just have a developing crush on a boy that was probably just making polite conversation with the girl two inches away from him.

fatuous or vacuous ?

today was okay yes you hear me ladies and gentlemen i had an "okay day" ! for lunch i got a peachy pear smoothie, which was amazing, and i got to read this amazing story about neat people and messy people plus i got an e-mail from tubberware boy *girly sigh*. sure it wasn't a romantic e-mail like " dear megan, god i miss you" but i'm okay with that. he talked about how lonely he is and how much he misses things ... which just makes me angry he didn't go to Mesa for two years, but oh well.

today i bought two new books and watched stranger then fiction with my mom. considering it was a will ferrell it was really serious but amazing all the same. on friday i am renting driving lessons and i am going to drive on the highway again probably.

i hope i have more days like this.


question of the day ?

how many sophomores go to FMHS ?

word of the day

docket

second day

well i lived through the second day of school. i must admit it wasn't much of an improvement from yesterday. the only plus was i got to go home with marie and get smoothies. i only had math homework (which i actually understood ) and that was it. i really want to get into US History AP, i know it will be hard but i think i need a challenge since all of my other classes are a breeze. okay Mr.Palmer might make AP lang hard but i think i can handle it. i finished that short story due today except that i skipped tenses a lot and " made it hard to understand ". i know i promised not to talk about tubberware boy but oh geeze i am really missing him. it has offically been two days since i've seen it and i honestly didn't think it was going to be that hard to not talk to him. i mean we went days without talking sometimes but at least i knew that i could talk to him if i wanted to. let's just see how this goes .....GOAL OF THE WEEK : have at least one "okay" day. don't get me wrong, going home with marie was fun but i am still having a rough time right now. i really dont' want to go see my counsler though because going there never solves anything, it just makes me feel like a girl that can't handle anything without getting upset.

redo

reminder to self, i need to pack my lunch since i forget one today. i just had a raspberry soda .. wow so healthy !



i'm in a better mood since i got my threadless shirt in the mail, weee !
and
i finished my short story


tomorrow will be okay

school ... bleh

well today was my first day of junior year and wow i was totally disappointed. i had high expectations for my classes, and lets just say most of them are really going to suck. my U.S history class is filled with strangers and i have no one to sit by since i'm the last person on the roll call sheet. my choir class, la cantantes is going to be hell ! there are only 4 upper class man and the rest are all sophomores that think that "emo" is the coolest thing and THEY ALL are obsessed with horses. now don't get me wrong that's alright but THEY ARE ALL INTO HORSES ! i won't be able to get away from them ... so yes today was horrible, and i don't want to go back to school, i really don't. i have classes with some of my friends but today i felt so disconnected and i really don't want to do my AP homework, Mr. Palmer is making us write a one page story right now, but megan is not in the mood to do that right now ( i have already slept for two hours since i've gotten home ) bleh ... i honestly feel bad that i hate school so much but i am convinced that this year is going to suck. to add on to my long list of what sucks i still have to ride the bus for 2 months before i get my lisense and virginia doesn't even ride it anymore. sorry this is suck a complaining entry, i am just in a horrible mood about school.

leaving

matt came over and helped me with my trouble shooting, he didn't get the updates updated because he said i didn't need them ( but he found other ones that i did need ) i showed him my chaco tan and i think he was impressed. and when he had to leave we hugged a lot and then we kissed once and then i was decided screw it i am going to kiss him more ! i won't see him till thanksgiving so i might as well. it was amazing .... i highlyhighlyyouotherboysdon'thaveachance doubt that i will meet a boy that is as nice, and as great of a kisser as him. don't get me wrong, there will be ones that i think are attractive but they won't be as great as he is. so yes .... this is my last entry involving "tubberware boy" and i hope that next time we see each other we still have the save amount of stars for each other ....... [end]

word of the day

dovecote

dirty fish water

just got home from rafting and i had a great time. i only got told to "stop" once from shea. which isn't bad really. plus i got a chaco tan and i actually slightly look like a bronze goddess .... ( i wish)

so the first thing i did when i got home was ... take a shower and then go to the fridge, which everyone else is probably doing i bet. we went floating in the river for awhile but then the current got faster and we all decided that we didn't want to die before we started junior year. kristen, emma, and i all decided if we did get in trouble we'd watch each others back and leave the rest for dead " darwin has chosen us to live". oh and by the way if you don't know what a chaco tan is you've never been to Colorado.

matt is packing right now but he said he'd call me when he was done ... ( jealous megan is rearing her ugly head) jessica and conrad hung out till seven in the morning a couple days ago because it was his last day, i have to admit i was like " wtf ! i only hung out with matt till nine !!! " sometimes i wonder if i am always meant to want what others have, it is really getting annoying. i just need to tell myself to shut the fuck up and get over it. conrad is going farther away then matt (he'll only be five or six hours away) GOAL for this year : get my jealousy under control.

mmm well i have just eaten and i need to see how many school supplies i have. yes i am still into getting ready for the first day of school ... cause i am that lame, lol.



billy won't leave me alone so i am considering changing my name to Gwen and moving to Turkey. he'll never find me there.

i love hipbones

yesterday i tried watching high school musical, sorry guys i only made it up to the lunch scene before i find another classic to watch, Scream 3. now i must admit it isn't quite as good as the first one but come on the first Scream is amazing (betcha didn't know i loved horror films). my top ones have to be

1.psycho
2.the shining
3.scream
4.the ring
5.the boogie man ( disney channel originial movie that scared the shit out of me)

"The Grudge" didnt scare me at all and i must admit "The Texas Chainsaw Massacre" scares me so i've never seen it all. pretty lame i know. I REALLY WANT TO SEE THE END OF 28 DAYS LATER ! maybe i should rent that tomorrow, it'll give me something to look forward to since i start school tomorrow,bleh.

my laptop won't update, so matt is going to help when i get home. there are lots of perks when you like a computer geek, and when he leaves tomorrow for college i'll still the entire club of computer geeks to help me ( i will most likely only ask Jeff or maybe Drew ) those ones are the next coolest ones.

YEAH YEAH YEAH

okay so megan may not know math, but i do know science.

i scored proficent !

broken cadi

today was good. i drove to delta with mi padres. it only took me forty-five minutes to get there and i ended up buying these awsome elephant buttons, two are blue and two are red. i got these amazing buttons for only 25 cents because they have been at the store for so long, awesomeness. tessa invited me to go to the concert under the stars, it was muy bien, minus the old man behind us that didn't like me very much. school starts in TWO DAYS !! ahh !!

BUT ...

i am getting this awesome shirt that glowes in the dark



question of the day

is "this land is your land" written by a communist ?

moon sand and mario party

yesterday went well. okay maybe i was overreacting when i thought they might be demonic. the boy dylan only tried to kill me once and that was when he fell off his bike right in front of me ( so i will call that one an accident). i am really sad though because i was invited to do so much stuff yesterday and i had to say no to all of it because of babysitting.

2 more days and matt is going to leave. i am actuallly not freaking out everytime i think about it. he has to leave and i highly doubt it is going to be the only reason to break us apart, he is three years older than me.

i wanted to play mario party 2 with the kids yesterday but they wouldn't let me, some how playing video games with the babysitter is now very lame for 10 year old boys.

i got an igoogle account and played spider solitaire for a couple hours while my parents were watching Wild Hogs WORST MOVIE EVER by the way.

today i am driving to the nieghboring town to get driving hours, just hope mom doesn't freak out like she does EVERYDAY i drive her to work.

question of the day

do aliens exist ?

10:05

okay i am pissed, my CSAP scores suck, well at least my math one does.





Megan is actually and scientifically proven to be stupid

um this isn't right

So today was my last day of work, you would think i would be happy, but shockingly i'm not. maybe it is because i am very rarely ever really happy. in the past week i think the only times i have really been happy has to be when i was watching the full monty with tessa and kate, and when i was at check-in with some of my friends. by the way here is my schedule ...

Semester one : 1. algebra 2 (because i am lame)
2. AP English. Lang 11 A
3. U.S history
4. Spanish 2
5 - 6 printmaking ( i am going to make my own "threadless" shirts
7. la cantantes
8. student aide ( is was either that or PE)



Okay there i are other reasons why i am unhappy.

UNO Today i had my boss (who happens to be a really creepy doctor) yelled at me and almost gave me a heart attack, and the worst thing is he wouldn't even be able to save because he is a obgyn doctor so he can only help me if i randomly burst into labor, or have a sexually transmitted disease.

DOS Matt is leaving in four days and last night i managed (yet again) to act like a silly little girl. all he said was "thank you for dating for a year ..." and right at that moment i burst into tears. yeah i know, how lame am i. he started hugging me and telling me "we'd keep in touch" but i dont' believe him, i have this feeling that he is going to meet this amazing computer/rocker/comedian CHICK that is going to make him forget about me. i can't blame him though, considering that fact that i am very weird, and don't know anything about computers. right now i am typing this on my brand new HP laptop with windows vista, it is really nice i just don't know how to do all the cool stuff on it yet. he said he'd come by before he left but i assume he will take that back considering how postal i went last night. I AM STUPID !

TR ES Tomorrow i have to babysit, i met one of the two kids today and he looked stoned, his mother assured me it was because he was allergic to the flowers but he still looked really creepy. i have this fear that i am going to babysit for demonic kids ( it happened last summer i swear) so i really hope these ones don't start saying weird shit like " they don't want you here" because i really don't want to deal with that right now.

well this is it for now. other then my question of the day.

WHY DO HIPPIES NOT WEAR SHOES AT FARMERS MARKET ???