i should have never gotten onto facebook. i clicked on "find a friend" and it said to enter your yahoo, google, or msn information, now i thought that entering that stuff would allow me to search for any one but oh now, since i entered my yahoo account only one person appeared ... matt. at first i thought that i shouldn't click on matt's friends but my curiosity totally took over, needless to say i clicked it. i saw a lot of girls, a lot of pretty from BOULDER ! and yeah it's now making me think that i should e-mail him and just express my feelings to him. this is what i was going to say .
"hey i was at fruita fall festival last night and i saw your parents, they need some help figuring out how to view those pictures you sent them so you might help them out. your mom asked what i had been up to and i told her i was in key club and had just finished making a the float for the parade. you mom and dad now think that ben should join,( i warned them that he would be one of two boys.) i'm really sorry i asked why you were talking to me a couple night ago, after you left i realized how insanely rude that probably sounded. it's not that i don't want to talk to you, that's not the case at all. it's just really weird when you get on and tell me that you don't want to come down because you know you'll never see any of the people there ever again and when you don't even comment when i say "we'd all like see you." i know things will be different between us when you come visit, i guess i just need to know how different. the last time i saw you we kissed and i asked you if that was the last kiss i'd be getting for awhile, and you said "yeah". that reply made me think that when you'd get home you'd still like me, but now i'm not so sure. it's not fair for me to think that you'll still like me when you come home, and when you get here there be nothing between us. i have a picture of you on my binder in this collage i made and people always ask me if you and i are still dating, before i take out i need to know what our status is. today i got a facebook account and i was considering adding you but before i did that i looked at your friends, and i saw some girls from CU. it made me realize how stupid it seems for me to think that you, a college freshman, would still like a junior in high school you haven't seen since August. was that kiss we shared the day before you left the last one we'll ever have, or do you think we can still have feeling for each other when you come home ? "
that's what i was going to say to him, let me know what you think, i need some opinions.
Saturday, September 29, 2007
fruita fall feast
i stayed there from 5:30-10:00 ! At first it was anita, virginia, and i but then they had to leave so i started hanging out with kate d., kristin hall, and jared. it was pretty fun minus me walking by the Hot Tomato booth a million times and each time looking at billy, i really feel sorry for you billy. he is just really cute, and i guess he looks a lot like virginia's clayton, lol. something also happened that i am still recovering from. I SAW MATT'S PARENTS ! yeah anita was like " look it's matt's parents .. " now i think i said shit under my breath because ever since him and i went outside to " find his glasses" really late in their backyard i was convinced that they didn't like me. then i saw them last night, i yelled "KATHY " and then we all started walking across the street to say hi to each other, she gave me a hug and we just started talking. matt told me he'd e-mail me pics of his dorm, which he never did, but i guess he did to his parents. and he also said he didn't talk much to his parents, but what i got from the conversation they know a lot. bleh if matt started , or is , telling me little lies i am going to be even more pissed off with him. but anyways .... we talked, they asked me how life is, and then when kathy hugged me to tell me good-bye she told me to come by, to see her. i don't know but that made me really sad. i told kathy we should have a girl's movie night but it never happened and i think she is feeling lonely. matt was the baby of the family, i mean even his little brother hung out more with friends and did more on the weekends. so yeah, out of all the people i would've seen and wanted to see i see his parents. life can be cruel, very cruel ..... four more days till my birthday. this will sound rude but it he doesn't at least write me an e-mail saying happy birthday i will will be pissed ....... but at least they will really show me how much i mean to him. nothing.
on a lighter note, i should write a sex book. i gave kristen advice on what she should do to jo, i told her she need to kiss his stomach [ shirt on] and then slowly start bringing it up kissing his stomach as you do so, i guess he turned into jelly .... told you so kristin. it was just really funny because she was like " megan is worked ! " i love how random things happen like that.. oh i and i need to get pregnant. i found the cutest hippie clothes at the fruita fall feast. maybe i should exchange that hat for sex with ian, he could totally give me the cutest hippie baby ever !
i am reading the ginger man and wow it is very very interesting. dangerfield is a strange man, and his wife if effing clueless .... but then again most women are.
kate d. and i are now hat buddies, her is awesome, and i am very glad that andrew texted her from a mini bus on their way to a soccer game. they are so going to date, and when they've dated for awhile she can do the kissing the stomach trick on him, it's fun seeing boys turn into jello. once i was about to do that to matt, but i was starting out kissing his neck, i had jeopardy on [don't ask me why] and you know i'm kissing him and then all of a sudden i hear " PLAYSTATION THREE ... i just won seven hundred bucks .... " let's just say i was a little miffed, matt explained it to me that he was into the kissing, it was just that he never gets those questions right so he was a little excited that he knew it. [boys]
i need to make my perfect boy.
i need to rent weird science .... lol
on a lighter note, i should write a sex book. i gave kristen advice on what she should do to jo, i told her she need to kiss his stomach [ shirt on] and then slowly start bringing it up kissing his stomach as you do so, i guess he turned into jelly .... told you so kristin. it was just really funny because she was like " megan is worked ! " i love how random things happen like that.. oh i and i need to get pregnant. i found the cutest hippie clothes at the fruita fall feast. maybe i should exchange that hat for sex with ian, he could totally give me the cutest hippie baby ever !
i am reading the ginger man and wow it is very very interesting. dangerfield is a strange man, and his wife if effing clueless .... but then again most women are.
kate d. and i are now hat buddies, her is awesome, and i am very glad that andrew texted her from a mini bus on their way to a soccer game. they are so going to date, and when they've dated for awhile she can do the kissing the stomach trick on him, it's fun seeing boys turn into jello. once i was about to do that to matt, but i was starting out kissing his neck, i had jeopardy on [don't ask me why] and you know i'm kissing him and then all of a sudden i hear " PLAYSTATION THREE ... i just won seven hundred bucks .... " let's just say i was a little miffed, matt explained it to me that he was into the kissing, it was just that he never gets those questions right so he was a little excited that he knew it. [boys]
i need to make my perfect boy.
i need to rent weird science .... lol
Thursday, September 27, 2007
i like phish food more than cherry garcia
today i placed an order for a hippie hat, oh yes i am THAT cool. i was in printmaking and i had nothing to do so i decided to go talk with one of the cute hippie boys.
wow you draw circles really well free handed
thanks, here let me show you how .... it's harder then it looks, see i can't draw one now ....
i like your hat
i made it myself, do you want one ? me and Tim make um, we went to Vermont and Canada and we made hats and partied with the money .... what colors .......
red, purple, and green
sweet ... how many X's ?
um ..... excuse me ...
do you want it really floppy or slightly floppy ?
slightly ....
okay i will put you down as one x, and for you it'll only be 10 dollars [smiles]
now let's see how long it takes him to actually make it for me ... 10 bucks says he never makes it ....
wow you draw circles really well free handed
thanks, here let me show you how .... it's harder then it looks, see i can't draw one now ....
i like your hat
i made it myself, do you want one ? me and Tim make um, we went to Vermont and Canada and we made hats and partied with the money .... what colors .......
red, purple, and green
sweet ... how many X's ?
um ..... excuse me ...
do you want it really floppy or slightly floppy ?
slightly ....
okay i will put you down as one x, and for you it'll only be 10 dollars [smiles]
now let's see how long it takes him to actually make it for me ... 10 bucks says he never makes it ....
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
two miles
I RAN TODAY !
mom and i went and worked out from 5:30 to seven.
i haven't started any of my homework yet but oh well !
I WORKED OUT !
i have to do some math homework before i go to bed, which will probably be at eleven.
1. pg 144-145 1-45 odd
2. read through chapter seven by thursday in the ginger man
3. TWO CURRENT EVENTS
mom and i went and worked out from 5:30 to seven.
i haven't started any of my homework yet but oh well !
I WORKED OUT !
i have to do some math homework before i go to bed, which will probably be at eleven.
1. pg 144-145 1-45 odd
2. read through chapter seven by thursday in the ginger man
3. TWO CURRENT EVENTS
Monday, September 24, 2007
back seats are sexy
it's official, i need a boy that will drive around with me.
1. Wal Mart
2. Target for ICEES
3. a random trail
4. a park to swing and or play chess at
5. will listen to Brand New and all of my other great music ridiculously loud with me
6. someone to kiss when we are in the parking lot [ i apologize for those poor people walking by = P ]
7. someone to hold hands with while driving, i know driving with one hand is unsafe but screw that
3. a random trail
4. a park to swing and or play chess at
5. will listen to Brand New and all of my other great music ridiculously loud with me
6. someone to kiss when we are in the parking lot [ i apologize for those poor people walking by = P ]
7. someone to hold hands with while driving, i know driving with one hand is unsafe but screw that
I FORGOT MY MATH BOOK AGAIN !
i fail at life
[final note]
the new pornographers are amazing ....
Sunday, September 23, 2007
side-side-note
those balls are called boba
andi forgot to tell you, i spent most of friday at the Division of Wildlife office. my brother showed me around, introduced me to people, and i got to see my one of my favorite family friends Harrietta. the coolest guy i met though was the one that introced to me to lollicup. he was like " brandon take megan to lollicup and make her try boba"
NOW I LOVE IT
andi forgot to tell you, i spent most of friday at the Division of Wildlife office. my brother showed me around, introduced me to people, and i got to see my one of my favorite family friends Harrietta. the coolest guy i met though was the one that introced to me to lollicup. he was like " brandon take megan to lollicup and make her try boba"
NOW I LOVE IT
red hat
this weekend i bought i new red hat, it was for six dollars at an army surplus store = ) but that's not all, i also tried my first lollicup, God it was amazing. it was this drink (milk tea) and there were HUGE balls of tapioca at the bottom that you suck up with an amazing straw, i hope i brought it home .....
on friday we (my family and jeff) went to Chedd's, it was hilarious being at this really hip dive with my parents, they seemed so lost. i had the yoga teacher it was muy bien ! while i was there i saw all this posters for up coming concerts and needless to say i am now trying to go to all of them [ but will most likely not go to any of them] you see, yesterday everything went totally wrong. saturday started out incrediable, i bought my new hat, got a lollicup, went to Best Buy with my brothers, flirted w/cute boys at Apple .... then after dinner my dad and my brother got in this HUGE fight, it ended with my dad leaving the room right when kevin yelled "fuck you !" yeah after that everything went down hill fast, my sister started crying, my dad refused to believe that anything was wrong, and kevin decided to walk his dogs .... until three o'clock in the morning. at first i thought everything would be okay today but when i found out that kevin didn't get home till three i knew that i was wrong. so lara (my sister-in-law) decided to take me to Cherry Creek to get my hair done today, it was really expensive, and to be honest, it looks no different ....... it feels better though. gahhh. lara let me drive in Denver, it was really fun, i am really glad i have her around. she told me the funniest story, i guess her and her high school boyfriend, at least one of them, got kicked out of Macy's because they were fooling around in the dressing room. i loved it because lara was like " he had a porsche ..... so that makes it okay to be a slut"
so i guess two years ago my brother's ex-girlfiend Julie, tried getting him to move with her to Australia, she told him he didn't even have to work there, she would pay for everything as long as he married her ..... i can't believe she liked him THAT much. no offense i love kevin a lot but that really pisses me off that she was willing to give him that much and he turned it down. they dated for eleven years so i guess that was an inclination that he didn't want to marry her but still. they are still friends, and i wish she would tell him to fuck off. he thinks he is so cool. if you need an example he still wears these glasses from the 80's he use to life guard in. but it sucks that he is mad at my family because he was going to take me to see one of my bands for my birthday but i highly doubt that is going to happen now. he wouldn't celebrate brandon's , my dad's, and my birthday with us at brandon's house today. goes to show you how my family is (i get sick of it)
10 days till my birthday, 11 till my license.
i have a purple ipod sock for my ipod, it is pretty rockin'
i think i am going to move to Denver after highschool
i have yet to work on my homework
i am in a bad mood
need food .......
oh f.y.i the dude i flirted with turned out to be married. his name is David and everytime i go to the Apple he is the one that helps me and my family. up until yesterday i never bothered to look at his ring finger. BASTARD ! i guess i'll have to go find some one at the Guster concert = P
on friday we (my family and jeff) went to Chedd's, it was hilarious being at this really hip dive with my parents, they seemed so lost. i had the yoga teacher it was muy bien ! while i was there i saw all this posters for up coming concerts and needless to say i am now trying to go to all of them [ but will most likely not go to any of them] you see, yesterday everything went totally wrong. saturday started out incrediable, i bought my new hat, got a lollicup, went to Best Buy with my brothers, flirted w/cute boys at Apple .... then after dinner my dad and my brother got in this HUGE fight, it ended with my dad leaving the room right when kevin yelled "fuck you !" yeah after that everything went down hill fast, my sister started crying, my dad refused to believe that anything was wrong, and kevin decided to walk his dogs .... until three o'clock in the morning. at first i thought everything would be okay today but when i found out that kevin didn't get home till three i knew that i was wrong. so lara (my sister-in-law) decided to take me to Cherry Creek to get my hair done today, it was really expensive, and to be honest, it looks no different ....... it feels better though. gahhh. lara let me drive in Denver, it was really fun, i am really glad i have her around. she told me the funniest story, i guess her and her high school boyfriend, at least one of them, got kicked out of Macy's because they were fooling around in the dressing room. i loved it because lara was like " he had a porsche ..... so that makes it okay to be a slut"
so i guess two years ago my brother's ex-girlfiend Julie, tried getting him to move with her to Australia, she told him he didn't even have to work there, she would pay for everything as long as he married her ..... i can't believe she liked him THAT much. no offense i love kevin a lot but that really pisses me off that she was willing to give him that much and he turned it down. they dated for eleven years so i guess that was an inclination that he didn't want to marry her but still. they are still friends, and i wish she would tell him to fuck off. he thinks he is so cool. if you need an example he still wears these glasses from the 80's he use to life guard in. but it sucks that he is mad at my family because he was going to take me to see one of my bands for my birthday but i highly doubt that is going to happen now. he wouldn't celebrate brandon's , my dad's, and my birthday with us at brandon's house today. goes to show you how my family is (i get sick of it)
10 days till my birthday, 11 till my license.
i have a purple ipod sock for my ipod, it is pretty rockin'
i think i am going to move to Denver after highschool
i have yet to work on my homework
i am in a bad mood
need food .......
oh f.y.i the dude i flirted with turned out to be married. his name is David and everytime i go to the Apple he is the one that helps me and my family. up until yesterday i never bothered to look at his ring finger. BASTARD ! i guess i'll have to go find some one at the Guster concert = P
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
let's get fucked up and die
1. Let's get fucked up and die - Motion City Soundtrack
2. Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
3. Jesus Christ - Brand New
4. Don't cry out - Shiny Toy Guns
5. Sound of silence - Simon and Garfunkel
[my mix of the day]
e-mailed matt, i got a reply, but only one. it's offically been on month since i've seen him.
[lonely]
tomorrow i am leaving for Denver and i can't wait to get out of Grand Junction ! i am buying virginia's b-day present there, so i am pretty excited.
= ( + = )
2. Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
3. Jesus Christ - Brand New
4. Don't cry out - Shiny Toy Guns
5. Sound of silence - Simon and Garfunkel
[my mix of the day]
e-mailed matt, i got a reply, but only one. it's offically been on month since i've seen him.
[lonely]
tomorrow i am leaving for Denver and i can't wait to get out of Grand Junction ! i am buying virginia's b-day present there, so i am pretty excited.
= ( + = )
Monday, September 17, 2007
not worth it
I QUIT !
you hear me, megan velarde has quit Girl Scout offically. our meeting started out with no one saying hi to me except for Shellie [which i thought was weird] and Lisa and Shellie turning my idea down for a final project because it wasn't constant. funny how when Jennifer (her daughter) came up with an idea that wasn't CONSTANT somehow it became okay for her to do it. i am sick of being around fake people, and honestly i don't feel bad at all. i have been in girl scouts since 4th grade and i have recieced my bronze and silver award.
you hear me, megan velarde has quit Girl Scout offically. our meeting started out with no one saying hi to me except for Shellie [which i thought was weird] and Lisa and Shellie turning my idea down for a final project because it wasn't constant. funny how when Jennifer (her daughter) came up with an idea that wasn't CONSTANT somehow it became okay for her to do it. i am sick of being around fake people, and honestly i don't feel bad at all. i have been in girl scouts since 4th grade and i have recieced my bronze and silver award.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
FYI
thank you Kate for filling me in on the shorts, now my next question is why did they take their design from the stickers red necks have on their cars ? you soccer people are crazy.
today i played online chess all day and i didn't win, not even once. that is how pathetic i am at that game. i need a chess teacher if anyone is interested, lol. i left all of my homework at school so i had nothing to do all day except sleep and play around with my computer. it was actually quite nice considering i have been gone all weekend. next weekend, if all goes according to plan i will be in Denver with mi familia, that is if my mom doesn't have a mental breakdown. she had one today at 8:00 pm. and now her and my dad are downstairs talking in loud voices, hence why i am up (usually i am in bed around nine on school nights)
motion city has a new album coming out on the eighteeth.
today i played online chess all day and i didn't win, not even once. that is how pathetic i am at that game. i need a chess teacher if anyone is interested, lol. i left all of my homework at school so i had nothing to do all day except sleep and play around with my computer. it was actually quite nice considering i have been gone all weekend. next weekend, if all goes according to plan i will be in Denver with mi familia, that is if my mom doesn't have a mental breakdown. she had one today at 8:00 pm. and now her and my dad are downstairs talking in loud voices, hence why i am up (usually i am in bed around nine on school nights)
motion city has a new album coming out on the eighteeth.
people cake and millie
I AM TIRED
just got home from Marie's birthday party and jesus i ate a lot. yesterday we ate homemade bread, chips and dip, creepy chips that looked like fingers, pizza, cupcakes, people cake, and danish pancakes. it was amazing.
i went to the mall yesterday and bought a giraffe for my car and i got an icee cup that i am going to keep forever so i can get free refills. kate connor taught me that trick yesterday and the guys working at Target didn't tell us a thing. it was so cool. we went to a soccer game at MSC as well and that sport is now my favorite. kate d. and i are going to go to the GJ and Fruita game on Tuesday. she is going to talk to her man OR ELSE I WILL KILL HER ! emma and i want to kidnapp him when kate asks him to homecoming .. we are going to wear orange ski masks, IT WILL BE FUCKING AMAZING.
i had fun the kate's and virignia yesterday. i had so much fun in kate's car, we rode with the sun roof down while it was raining. = ) . too bad i have a lot of homework today or else it would've been the perfect day.
emma cussed a lot yesteday and it made my week.
just got home from Marie's birthday party and jesus i ate a lot. yesterday we ate homemade bread, chips and dip, creepy chips that looked like fingers, pizza, cupcakes, people cake, and danish pancakes. it was amazing.
i went to the mall yesterday and bought a giraffe for my car and i got an icee cup that i am going to keep forever so i can get free refills. kate connor taught me that trick yesterday and the guys working at Target didn't tell us a thing. it was so cool. we went to a soccer game at MSC as well and that sport is now my favorite. kate d. and i are going to go to the GJ and Fruita game on Tuesday. she is going to talk to her man OR ELSE I WILL KILL HER ! emma and i want to kidnapp him when kate asks him to homecoming .. we are going to wear orange ski masks, IT WILL BE FUCKING AMAZING.
i had fun the kate's and virignia yesterday. i had so much fun in kate's car, we rode with the sun roof down while it was raining. = ) . too bad i have a lot of homework today or else it would've been the perfect day.
emma cussed a lot yesteday and it made my week.
Friday, September 14, 2007
7/12
that is how many people showed up to the sushi night. and it ended up being really fun. tessa kept telling me to calm down because i was freaked out that no one would show. I NEED TO TAKE CHILL PILLS ! i had a quick, but pretty interesting conversation about sex with kristen and Borders. it was effing hilarious. we are sitting there, my legs are crossed and her and i are talking about sex. " so if you kiss there stomachs they become like jello, it works." i bought The Great Gatsby which i am going to read right after i finish F451 ( i am tired therefore i am not going to type that title all the way).
i am getting a hair cut !
Flo talked to me today after school, pretty sure he made me giggle like a school girl when he gave me the thumbs up ..... i feel so lame being excited over him = P but oh well virginia even admitted (as well as Tessa) that this boy is cute ... i was just slightly disturbed by the fact that his shorts has outlines of women on them, and you could totally tell because they had boobs. virginia and i were staring at his pants like ...... boobs ..... wait ..... girls on his shorts ?
bleh , so i am coming down with a cold and i have a birthday tomorrow and i am looking for a birthday present for marie and maybe homecoming dresses. I HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE !
flo > matt
[subject to change]
g'night, i am going to go sleep . MMmmmm
cookies kick ass
okay i have the hots for a german boy ....
and not only that
A GERMAN BOY WITH SHORT SHORTS !
honestly ......
tonight i am going out to sushi ! pretty excited !
and i get my license in two weeks !
rating of the day - MUY BIEN
and not only that
A GERMAN BOY WITH SHORT SHORTS !
honestly ......
tonight i am going out to sushi ! pretty excited !
and i get my license in two weeks !
rating of the day - MUY BIEN
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
study session 8:00
MY LUCK SUCKS !
the weekend i am going to Denver ,Matt is going to Ft. Collins to see his Uncle ....
[momentary minute of sadness]
megan is missing matt again. everytime i go by the park in the ridges i think about when we went at eight at night and played on the equipment even thought it was freezing .... he kissed me upside down in the tubes [ it was almost perfect except he was sitting on my hair]. afterwards he came back to my house and we played with play doh and watched the batman movies. FUCK ! Jesus i hate memory lane sometimes ....... i am going to go take a shower and get my mind off of him.
the weekend i am going to Denver ,Matt is going to Ft. Collins to see his Uncle ....
[momentary minute of sadness]
megan is missing matt again. everytime i go by the park in the ridges i think about when we went at eight at night and played on the equipment even thought it was freezing .... he kissed me upside down in the tubes [ it was almost perfect except he was sitting on my hair]. afterwards he came back to my house and we played with play doh and watched the batman movies. FUCK ! Jesus i hate memory lane sometimes ....... i am going to go take a shower and get my mind off of him.
i send letters to him from the future
the cheesecake at Garfields is effing sinful !
We saw Kate and work and she gave me a coloring sheet and some nifty crayons to use, i didn't finish because it is really hard to color well when you have butter everywhere.
1. i had fun at lunch with tessa and stephanie
2. flo and i talked a lot
side note : misseke has decided i need to reproduce with Flo so we can have cute german/hispanic babies
3. i am finding all the episodes of The Office online
4. my ipod is full, and filled with awesome music !
play list for today : "teenagers" , "sunshine (go away today)","tick tick boom"," i bet you look good on the dance floor", and " i believe in symmetry".
5. i am starting pilates and Tessa and Steph are joining me
6. SUSHI NIGHT
7. 20 days till i get my license !
boys crying is a turn on ..... [ blaim MTV for that comment]
We saw Kate and work and she gave me a coloring sheet and some nifty crayons to use, i didn't finish because it is really hard to color well when you have butter everywhere.
1. i had fun at lunch with tessa and stephanie
2. flo and i talked a lot
side note : misseke has decided i need to reproduce with Flo so we can have cute german/hispanic babies
3. i am finding all the episodes of The Office online
4. my ipod is full, and filled with awesome music !
play list for today : "teenagers" , "sunshine (go away today)","tick tick boom"," i bet you look good on the dance floor", and " i believe in symmetry".
5. i am starting pilates and Tessa and Steph are joining me
6. SUSHI NIGHT
7. 20 days till i get my license !
boys crying is a turn on ..... [ blaim MTV for that comment]
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
doctors visits
today i got out of school early, but it wasn't that much fun. i had to go to a doctor's appointment for my scoliosis. i have an "s" curve of the spine plus another curve. she also pointed out that my back curves in ward which explains why i always feel weird when i stand tall. she gave me props on my posture though, i felt pretty proud. of course right after my mom had to add " this is the first day in months that she has had good posture .... " but oh no she didn't stop there, she also added that " i don't' really do anything." [she has also been getting on me to eat better] mind you this is after she get KFC for dinner AND says we are going to have SONIC for dinner tonight ......
after my two hour long apt. mom and i went and i am now a member of crossroads fitness center. my first Pilate's class is this Thursday.
[ i am seeing how long it takes for mom to actually go and work out]
today i was thinking about the future, at for the first time in awhile i was looking forward to it. right now i am so excited to get out of high school and go somewhere new. sure i have no idea where that will be but at least i am happy about the future. the strangest thing about me being happy about that is i am mostly looking forward to being married and having kids. which is incredibly strange for a sixteen [ almost seventeen ] year old girl to think. honestly today, and for the past week i have been coming up with names for the kids i want to have, and i have been thinking about where i want to go on my honeymoon, and what i want to cook for our first meal together. i swear i am insane sometimes.
i was reading one of my friend's blogs today and i realized, how much i wish i knew about them. it is sad that reading that made me realize how much i miss from being so caught up in what is going on in my life. i'm not a very good friends when it comes to that sort of thing. actually to be totally honest i don't think i am a very good friends at all. i want everyone to care about what is going on in my life but it seems like i very rarely ask them questions, i just wait for them to ask me questions. i hope the older i get the better i am at understanding people more, because right now i am not very good. i know my friends think i am funny but i honestly don't see why i get invited to do things. maybe right now in my life i am unsure of everything.
today i was just joking around with this boy named Drew, we were talking about short shorts and the he asked me if just wanted to check him out, jokingly i said "yeah" and his next comment was " gross." yeah i was secretly embarressed inside. i'm so use to a boy that actually liked it when i said things like that. i guess that was my first time in awhile that i remembered that most boys don't like me. i'm not sure if it is the fact that i wear weird clothes, or the fact that i am slightly bigger. or maybe the fact that i am slightly shy. i think i am a great catch, i like video games, movies, and just doing random things. i don't like anyone right now, frankly right now ever boys scares the shit out of me.
i have some things i need to think about.
after my two hour long apt. mom and i went and i am now a member of crossroads fitness center. my first Pilate's class is this Thursday.
[ i am seeing how long it takes for mom to actually go and work out]
today i was thinking about the future, at for the first time in awhile i was looking forward to it. right now i am so excited to get out of high school and go somewhere new. sure i have no idea where that will be but at least i am happy about the future. the strangest thing about me being happy about that is i am mostly looking forward to being married and having kids. which is incredibly strange for a sixteen [ almost seventeen ] year old girl to think. honestly today, and for the past week i have been coming up with names for the kids i want to have, and i have been thinking about where i want to go on my honeymoon, and what i want to cook for our first meal together. i swear i am insane sometimes.
i was reading one of my friend's blogs today and i realized, how much i wish i knew about them. it is sad that reading that made me realize how much i miss from being so caught up in what is going on in my life. i'm not a very good friends when it comes to that sort of thing. actually to be totally honest i don't think i am a very good friends at all. i want everyone to care about what is going on in my life but it seems like i very rarely ask them questions, i just wait for them to ask me questions. i hope the older i get the better i am at understanding people more, because right now i am not very good. i know my friends think i am funny but i honestly don't see why i get invited to do things. maybe right now in my life i am unsure of everything.
today i was just joking around with this boy named Drew, we were talking about short shorts and the he asked me if just wanted to check him out, jokingly i said "yeah" and his next comment was " gross." yeah i was secretly embarressed inside. i'm so use to a boy that actually liked it when i said things like that. i guess that was my first time in awhile that i remembered that most boys don't like me. i'm not sure if it is the fact that i wear weird clothes, or the fact that i am slightly bigger. or maybe the fact that i am slightly shy. i think i am a great catch, i like video games, movies, and just doing random things. i don't like anyone right now, frankly right now ever boys scares the shit out of me.
i have some things i need to think about.
Monday, September 10, 2007
not another teen blog
i am really tired
today was asi asi, i have a spanish test tomorrow so i am really worried .... even though i have over a hundred in that class i will most likely screw up [ i always do ] this sounds really strange but today i feel really cute, i'm talkin' i am so full of myself right now, it's great.
Kayla has a boyfriend and i am really happy for her.
today i saw matt reading Dracula and i think i freaked out billy because i stare at him so much during Modern lit. i try not to look at him so much but he is just so cute. i honestly wish i could find someone with "the matt's" attractiveness/personality and billy's intellect.
right now i am watching worst movie ever not another teen movie for some odd reason i thought it might be funny but it has way too many dick jokes ... bleh
i am suppose to go to Denver sept. 21st, mom wants me to go see Matt at CU but i'm really scared .... what if he doesn't want to see me ?
espanol exam with kick my ass tomorrow wish me luck .....
this is brighteyes .. he's my new boyfriend and he sings " i believe in symmetry"
Saturday, September 8, 2007
voice changing
i might get to meet him
so Matt instant messaged me and told me he saw RG at youth group, lets just say i hope to God Matt isn't joking or else i will cut off his manly hood and hang it on a light pole. yeah it is that serious. Tessa and i are going to go to boulder and see if we can find him, we are going to stalk him and show him our boobs, after that he'll love us forever. YES ! Tessa is the only one i will share him with, and if that doesn't work i guess I'll go visit Matt, lol. today he e-mailed me and told me about all the concerts that are happening in Denver. ( i want to go see Motion City).
i guess he found a girl that looks exactly like me, but he was a good boy when i asked if i was prettier he said 'of course '
so Matt instant messaged me and told me he saw RG at youth group, lets just say i hope to God Matt isn't joking or else i will cut off his manly hood and hang it on a light pole. yeah it is that serious. Tessa and i are going to go to boulder and see if we can find him, we are going to stalk him and show him our boobs, after that he'll love us forever. YES ! Tessa is the only one i will share him with, and if that doesn't work i guess I'll go visit Matt, lol. today he e-mailed me and told me about all the concerts that are happening in Denver. ( i want to go see Motion City).
i guess he found a girl that looks exactly like me, but he was a good boy when i asked if i was prettier he said 'of course '
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
today in history
today Megan ate pesto pizza, it was really tasty. i also designed a picture that i am going to etch for printmaking. it is a double helix and inside it reads " li manco" which means " i miss you" in Italian. now mind you i have no idea if that really does mean " i miss you". i just got that from an online translator [lol].
i listened to The Faint today.
and
BRAND NEW
megan is resorting back to her old ways.
threadless shirts are coming tomorrow ....
zombies and scuba divers ... yesssth
i listened to The Faint today.
and
BRAND NEW
megan is resorting back to her old ways.
threadless shirts are coming tomorrow ....
zombies and scuba divers ... yesssth
Monday, September 3, 2007
vanity and greed
i am listening to Silverstein's new album. of course i love there first single if you could see into my soul. the music video for this song is pretty intense, they rob a frigging bank, which i still want to do by the way. now i know that is HIGHLY unlikely for me to ever do but come on, who wouldn't want to successfully rob a bank.
here's what i would do with the money
1. travel to Europe
2. go see Shiny toy guns concert
3. buy a better car
4. buy a better ipod
i haven't listened to music like this in such a long time. it reminds me of the days when i use to wear bandanas and red eye make-up. now sometimes i still rock those things but it some how seems different .... now a days i am more at home in skinny jeans and a threadless shirt with my tie dye bag ... which years later i will blame for my fucked up back. yesterday i tried out my ipod adapter for my car, God i felt cool riding around in MY 91 oldsmobile blaring tegan and sara. only a month till i can drive without an adult. the first thing i am going to do it go and see marie at the Hot Tomato. pesto pizza is calling my name .... one of the German exchange students gave me the eye when i walked by he was like ... [ lowers voice] "helloooooo *winks*" now i have a momentary relapse of judgement and i actually gave him that whole thing back ... when i turned the corner i bursted into laughter ... you know i am desperate for male attention when i flirt with a mildly unattractive german exchange student that is at least six feet tall and wears the smallest shorts ever ! but some where in my mind that whole short short things doesn't bother me. i like guys legs. and i also like their hairy arms .. but it has to be blonde hair arms ...... i am not looking forward to tomorrow. Lara (my sister in law) told me i could live with them and i might take them up on that offer next summer (and maybe even spring break).
my shirts are coming this week ! maybe even tomorrow ! yes !
i need to draw a picture for U.S History ..... bleh
here's what i would do with the money
1. travel to Europe
2. go see Shiny toy guns concert
3. buy a better car
4. buy a better ipod
i haven't listened to music like this in such a long time. it reminds me of the days when i use to wear bandanas and red eye make-up. now sometimes i still rock those things but it some how seems different .... now a days i am more at home in skinny jeans and a threadless shirt with my tie dye bag ... which years later i will blame for my fucked up back. yesterday i tried out my ipod adapter for my car, God i felt cool riding around in MY 91 oldsmobile blaring tegan and sara. only a month till i can drive without an adult. the first thing i am going to do it go and see marie at the Hot Tomato. pesto pizza is calling my name .... one of the German exchange students gave me the eye when i walked by he was like ... [ lowers voice] "helloooooo *winks*" now i have a momentary relapse of judgement and i actually gave him that whole thing back ... when i turned the corner i bursted into laughter ... you know i am desperate for male attention when i flirt with a mildly unattractive german exchange student that is at least six feet tall and wears the smallest shorts ever ! but some where in my mind that whole short short things doesn't bother me. i like guys legs. and i also like their hairy arms .. but it has to be blonde hair arms ...... i am not looking forward to tomorrow. Lara (my sister in law) told me i could live with them and i might take them up on that offer next summer (and maybe even spring break).
my shirts are coming this week ! maybe even tomorrow ! yes !
i need to draw a picture for U.S History ..... bleh
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