Fucked up night

So tonight Will and I decided it would be fun to take those "pills" (refer back to last entry if you don't know what I am talking about). It was a total joke and nothing happened but seriously tonight was horrible.

First at Blockbuster while we were walking around Will put his hand on my butt, I don't know why but I really hated it so I sorta got pissed and told him to keep his hands off. Well after that we went back to my house and watched a movie, it was a scary movie and it was enjoyable then when we went back to get another movie we decided to see "Teeth". I will not go into details about the movie, lets just say it is really fucked up. But anyways ... the whole time I was thinking about Will and about how he jokes around a lot about sexual things and how I don't like ... and that I really miss Matt because he never did that sorta thing.

On the ride home I told Will I wouldn't have sex with him and he said that was fine, he liked me for me, not for sex and stuff. But I still think he expects it from me, which is fucked up. I think I brought this sorta upon myself though because he asked me if I had ever seen a guy ____ and I said yes and now he acts really different. I told him I was a virgin but he said that doesn't bother him, he just doesn't want to think of me being around another guys _____ honestly men are so annoying.

Funny night

Will was in a funny mood last night.

Well the night before while him and his friends were waiting for the hookah to arrive I got really feisty and I started hitting Will and stuff so I guess I can't talk. That night he ended up picking me up and carrying me around for twenty minutes, lol.

But back to last night. He kept on like stroking my arm and my leg constantly ...... it was so weird. I mean it felt nice but he usually isn't into touching. After watching the movie he just laid down on my arm and we talked into the late hours of the night. He would say something and then kiss my arm, it was really cute. But yeah while we were at the gas station I found this packet of these pills called "horny goat weed" and it is suppose to make you really horny, isn't that strange ? I mean how desperate are these people ? It was for ninety-nine cents and I wanted to buy some just to see what happens but I decided not too, maybe for another night. lol.

long time no posty

So sorry I have not been blogging lately,been way too busy [ yeah right ]. Well Will went to Alaska and guess what he bought me, NINETY DOLLAR EARRINGS ! oh and he bought me this really cool winter scarf that has the Manchester United logo on it. It is pretty sweet. So yeah he spoiled me while he was away and I got him was a lame pen that has a falcon on it, haha. But yeah he told his family we are "dating" I didn't have the heart to argue with them because I mean he does really treat me well and stuff. He got in a car accident so now I have drive us everywhere, lol, I think it is pretty funny. For awhile i had four guys liking me, now it is down to three. Paul, Will, and Billy like me. WHY CAN'T ANYONE REALLY COOL LIKE ME ? lol. out of those three I think Will is the best, we have a lot of fun together.

This is what Will and I have done in the past week.

1. watch two movies
2. go out to sushi
3. have dinner with his family
4. go see a movie
5. play scrabble
6. watch the mighty boosh
7. wash my car
8. hang out with dustin, quinn, charlie, and kyle
9. try to fix 4Runner and hang out with dustin, ryan, and david

I know isn't that sick, we hang out a lot. But he is going to be gone for 12 days in July. Summer is going by so fast, it is ridiculous = ( I am sad.

Today I got my tickets for the Feist concert I am going to with my sister, brother and Ellen. pretty excited. we are leaving on the 14th and the concert is on the 15th.

I am hanging out with Marie today, should be fun. So far the only females I have hung out with this summer, is Tessa, Anita, and Amy.lol.

turtle eating lettuce

So Will bought me a necklace while he was on vacation in S.Dakota. Oh geez. It is this necklace with a turtle on it and I actually like it a lot. He got it for me because him and I were talking about our Indian names and I said that mine was "turtle eating lettuce" so that was what he decided to buy me .. a turtle. Tonight I went over to his house and watched this really crazy movie called A Clockwork Orange and wow there were a lot of boobs in that movie OMG ! It was really funny watching it because Will got all red and stuff, lol. Well he put his arm around me and I was like ..... fuck fuck fuck so I starting lying down and then he put his hand on my leg and I was like fuck fuck fuck ... seriously Will loves to touch me ... awkward. he is nice and everything, I just don't see myself with him. I mean I joke around about marrying him but come on ... it's Will Kiser

better

Found a new band, well actually I have known about them for awhile but I just now actually listened to them. They are the free download for this week on itunes. Yeah it is pretty intense I know. So I e-mailed Matt for some sympathy, it worked. haha. Oh yeah I hate all men. Just to let you know. Guess I'll just have to wait till I meet Murph from the The Wombats ....

[cough,cough]

So for the past few days I have been sick in bed, yeah it really sucked. Well today I am pleased to announce I was able to get out of bed and social with my parents. I still have a slightly sore throat but it's feeling WAY better then how it was. Just hope tomorrow I am 90% better = )

I still have a horrible sore throat and I think my boobs are getting larger. FACK !

Screw you bug

I AM SICK
Pretty sure Will REALLY likes me and I don't know what to do. Last night he texted me and said that he liked me just as I am and that he thought I was hot/beautiful. FACK ! Seriously this isn't good. To add to this stress Billy likes me and pretty sure when Garrick and I were texting he said something really weird. He said even though I might not be tan goddess I was sure already at goddess level. YIKES ! Why can't normal and attractive guys like me ? I get the rich ones but they are all less than appealing, maybe my standards are too high. Maybe I should date one of them ..... God that is such a scary thought. Ellen and Anita both think I am going to marry Will, ehhhh. My parents all <3 him but him and I aren't on the same level emotionally and to be honest I want to be with a guy that I am attracted to. I am not attracted to Billy or Will, Garrick a little but still .... Please God say that next school year there is a hot/intelligent foreign exchange student that I can be with : ) I'd be a happy girl.

Finished reading Bridget Jones's Diary. When mom gets home from her meetings today she is taking me to Barnes and Noble the buy the second one [smiles]. One of the perks of being sick is that your parents drive you around everywhere and buy you things. Just wish my sore throat would go away.

cowboys and indians

Hello Blog, long time not new posty. Since I have written nothing too exciting as occured. I've started reading a new book which is really good. Finally finished Love Is A Many Trousered Thing. Pretty sure I stopped reading that book because one of the characters reminded me too much of Matt. Yeah and pretty cried at the end of the novel, I am such a pussy.

Tessa and I are tanning this week :) and we're also going on another walk because my goal is to get down to 125 by the end of the summer. That means ladies and gents that I will have to loose 20 pounds, fuck me. I really don't think I look too too horrible I just really want to looked toned. All of this means that I need to give up my love for icecream, it will be easier now that Ellen is gone because we also eat icecream when we're together. Don't really know why ......


Been talking to Garrick, Will, and Billy. Pretty sure they all like me and pretty sure I don't like any of them, well as friends I do but sadly there is someone else that I sorta like (even though I know it is really stupid). I think that is it, you always want what you can't have.