GOOD GIRLS GOTTA GET DOWN WITH THE GANGSTAS !

new post !

things I got for christmas

- shoes (early christmas gift from mom
- $ 50 for best buy from kevin, uncle tony, and aunt sylvia
- smart wool socks
- a dead kennedy's cd
- bento box ( a polka dot one or a rabbit one)
- gift card to Target
- 2 lips glosses
- earrings


I am down with something, I got it the day school ended and yesterday I felt like crap and tonight .... I puked a couple times (not pretty). I hope tomorrow I feel better and sound better. bleh. I have been listening to my new cd 24/7. I really want some more of TDK's stuff .. there is something about them that makes me love them = )

Got some new yarn, my new scarf is going to be fucking incredible !

salad FEED ME

I love Boulder [period]

Kevin took us there for a couple hours and we went to this amazing restaurant that just serves salad. I got the Edgar Allen Poe and boy was it tasty, I wanted to lick the bowl but my sister said that would embarrass her. I think Kristen bought me a cd today at Borders, I hope she got the Dead Kennedy's. I know she did't get me the Bento, I am so pissed at her, I am half tempted to return some of her gifts. I know that is horrible but I REALLY wanted that japanese lunch box = (

The boys in Boulder are hott. While we were at Border's I guess my mom and dad saw a girl that looked exactly like me. They both went up to her and my mom even put her arm around her, awkward.

My grandma is coming over today, pray for me.
I need to buy more clothes.

History Channel

One day till Christmas !

I have been in Denver for three days. The first day we picked my brother up at DIA at 11:00 p.m., he went on a vacation with Julie to the Virgin Islands. Yesterday, which was my mom's birthday, Kevin took me to the Flat Irons so I could buy Christmas presents for my sister. Him and I had so much fun, we went to the this candle store and one of the ladies was like " DON"T SMELL THE ACTUALLY SMELL THE LID ! " She even pointed to a sign that said that. Needless to say we started smelling lid AND the candle just to piss the lady off. I swear some people are so touchy.

My sister is house sitting my other brother's house and last night my mom spent the night with her last night and they said they would be over thirty minutes ago. I want my Starbucks, lol. Kristen and mom said they would bring over coffee and I am really thirsty. I am still a little sick, my nose is all red but at least I don't have a sore throat anymore. Sora throats are the worse !

Amy's party was a blast ! We played ping pong, twister, and hockey. Her parents are really nice and their was so inviting. When I get home I am going over there and AMy and I are going to give Garrick his Christmas present = )

Merry Christmas everyone .

No more school for me

Today was the last day of school before Christmas break, Thank you Jesus ! It was pretty uneventful ... Kate loved her toy gun [happy]. I guess my secret Santa will give me my present tonight @ Amy's, I wonder what it will be. I don't really want to go tonight actually, I am really sleepy, and really sick. I want to go, but I don't know if I am up to it.
Tomorrow I am leaving for Denver, I need to do some laundry AND I need to find something to buy my sister (who has me I guess). You see yesterday my mom bought me this awesome shoes, they were on my christmas list and I guess my sister bought them for me already so today my sister called and was like "what can I get Megan ?" YOU ARE STUPID KRISTEN ! I have a list of things I want, I want a mr. bento, I want two cd's, I want Harry Potter ! sometimes I really hate my family, they need to learn how to listen.
All today I thought about kissing Matt, I would randomly go off into space and think about him ..... Megan is a horrible person, instead of watching "The Grinch" I thought about Matt for 95 minutes. Megan really needs to get a kiss, too bad Garrick won't be there tonight = (

booger

I have to finish my math final today and the rest of the my AP final. I can't get anyuthing less than B's in both of those classes so I didn't study that hard for them .. oops. Last night instead of studying I went over to Matt's for thirty minutes, we did some flirting ... I REALLY wanted to kiss him but his whole family was around so I was like " when I get home from Denver I am going to get myself some Matt ... " He acts like he still likes me, he does that thing were he teases me because he knows I will want to fight him. Yesterday when we huggged I touched his stomach and HOLY SHIT ! HE has like ..... even harder abs [orgasms]. I wish he wasn't so God Damn Attractive, and sweet, and funny. Haha. Tonight is Amy's part, and at lunch today we are doing our Secret Santa ( I bought mine a gun). TOY GUN.

stockings

Well I went to Target and bought my sister a gift and I helped Amy Christmas shop. Her and I decided to buy Garrick a combined present so we bought him milk duds, hot tamales, peeps, and sweet tarts. We were going to buy him bod man spray but after Amy sprayed us both with it we decided we'd kill ourselves if Garrick started wearing that stuff. It smells so bad ! Carmel's mom saw Garrick and I talking and I guess she told Carmel that we had the "look" so now Carmel is convinced that Garrick likes me, even though the only things he has told Amy about me is "I had fun with Megan last night" and "we have a lot in common". I hope on friday, if he comes to Amy party he at least ignores me so I know he isn't interested.

Just got off the phone with MH, he e-mailed me and told me he was in town. I guess he came to school today for lunch, he didn't try to see me, which doesn't surprise me. But I still decided to call him .... we talked for a while until Kathy told him he hasn't spent enough time with her yet, Jesus. I think I might be going over there tomorrow to get a cd from him, unless he bails out on me, which if he does, oh well ...... I am sick of caring about other people. Maybe it is the cold that I have or maybe the fact that I just hate finals but I really really dislike life right now [shoot me please]

parents

I had a blast hanging out with Garrick and Amy. Sure I lost at bowling and had to buy them both ice cream but OMG! it was so much fun. I had to drive Garrick around because Amy is a good girl and didn't want to get in trouble. After we ate ice cream at Coldstone's I had to take Garrick back to Gj Scores so his parents could pick him up and it was so precious, he could tell I was cold so he gave me his hoodie, and when his parents came he gave me a hug [smiles] I don't think he likes me but he was like "[hug] it was great seeeing you again."
BUT
When I got i went downstairs to chat with my parents and OMG! I flipped my cellphone open to text Amy and my parents flipped out ! My mom started saying that I don't help out enough and that I seem like I am hiding something, parents are so annoying. That is why I am upstairs, alone.


Well I am texting Amy right now and I guess Garrick always gives girls his jacket, I don't feel special anymore = ( oh well

= )

My hair looks amazing ! I loved it because everyone actually noticed that I cut my hair, I felt really special. The play went well last night. Afterwards I went over to Ellen's ( her house is amazing ) and we watched this crazy movie about transvestites in the Australian outback ....... Kristin and Derick showed up an hour later *cough* and they cuddles the whole time. I guess Kristin's philosophy is that if I have a make out buddy she should have a cuddle buddy. I think that is really funny because I don't have a make out buddy, Paul and I kissed twice last week and it won't happen anymore. He did the same thing with Lucy this week I guess but on Saturday when she went to Chinese food he came to V.I. with me. Half way through the meal he put his arm around me and asked if I wanted to hang out but my better judgement told me to decline, which I did. At five Amy and I are going to go hang out with Garrick, God I am so excited ..... I am going to wear skinny jeans, a white long sleeved shirt, and my new red jacket. I am also going to wear my pretty grey scarf = )


cross your fingers that all goes well

HAIR !

Today I am getting a hair cut and I want my bangs to look like this. I am so excited to see what the ladies do to my hair. I am not going to dye it orange like the picture but I want those kinds of bangs and the layers. [excited]. Last night I e-mailed Matt and told him to make a chart of all the negatives and positives of moving in with each group. I guess his mom said the same thing to him, lol. I hope mom gets home in time to take me to my appointment, I feel like hanging out with her.

p.s

[being hot isn't the most important thing]

I just don't know his personality yet so I just like "he's hot." I guess he is Catholic ........ hmmmm

toast

Amy has this really cute friend that is homeschooled

- 1 point

He is HOTT

+ 2000

but .. he listens to Slip Knot

- 6000000000000000000000000000000000000000


BUT he is hot, so I think I am going to invite him to hang out with Amy and I.

<3

Friday

Today ended well. I ended up going to Village Inn and Ellen and I had fun. Except I was right next to Joe who talked about video games the whole time (it got annoying). Christian was drunk off his ass and I was like ..... "haha loser !." He fell into the trophy case AND he started talking to Kayla and Tessa ....

Christian : Kayla you talked shit about Kole, but I loved operating on you in M*A*S*H .... I AM IN MR.PALMER'S CLASS !!!!


While at VI Paul sat next to me and fed my really really buttery toast that was ridiculously hard to swallow. Paul and I were looking at each other because we were bothing eating the toast and were like [chewing] "it won't go down !" Finally I had to take a HUGE swig of water, lol. Tomorrow is the cast party, WEEE !

I think Kristen and I are bipolar. I love Ellen, a lot.

Fuck School

Right now it is 12:40 and I am sitting at home, drinking grape juice, eating jerky,composing my Christmas list, and watching this show that is counting down the best songs of 2007. KANYA WEST DESERVED TO BE IN THE TOP FIVE !

wanna see my Christmas list ?
1.) bento box
2.) boating shoes
3.) dead kennedys cd or paramore's second cd "Riot"
4.) $
5.) threadless gift card
6.) harry potter movies
I have a feeling that I will be getting the Paramore cd instead of dead kennedys because TDK are punk and that probably freaks my family out ..... I can't wait till they see me once I turn eighteen [wuhahaha].

I really don't want to go to play practice today ... positive attitude Megan, positive attitude Megan ...

Mom has been on the phone the whole time I have been home, I wanted her to go with me and buy some food but I think I will have to go by myself .... she is talking to my aunt Silvia (who she doesn't even like)

moccassins

Grace wore my moccasin's last night when her and Derick were in their snow ball fight outside and now my shoes look like crap. ARRGH ! I love how she told me she wore them AFTER she took them outside .. AFTER I COULD HAVE SAID NO !!!


Mom and I are going shopping today for some new winter clothes for me = ) I am excited. ... I need to work on homework but that can wait because well. I love buying new clothes. = )

Um ...

Kristin's carpet is really wet right now. All of us were chill until Grace and Derick got into this huge fight thingy which involved a lot of slapping, snow balls, sharpies, and this HUGE chunk of gross snow ...... I was so glad that Kate D. showed up, and later Virginia, without them I would've gone crazy ! no offense it was fun BEFORE things got out of hand. Jared and Conrad tried drawing penis's on my car and then Courtney and Conrad got in a fight .... again. Maybe I should have stayed home and been with mi familiar.

Saturday

This morning I woke up at five fifteen and left at five forty for play practice. It went really well and we found someone to do the sounds for us. KRISTEN HALL ! Tonight she is having a Christmas party and I am so excited ....

I will get on when I get home and tell you guys if the party lived up to my expectations.

17 ?

Who wants to go see this movie with me ?

teenagers

I am a teenager, therefore I am insane.
I saw The Golden Compass with Kristen and Tessa and it sucked ....
But I like being with my friends so it was worth it.

I wish I could've been two places at once.
I want to hang out with Kate D. and Virginia too !


Like I said before I am a teenager, we do and say stupid stuff

nazi dos

I woke up thirty minutes ago and can't stop thinking about how much I fucked up and I can't BELIEVE I actually bought Paul's line that he wasn't just after the affection. Well apparently that was a whole big line because he never texted me back.[ not so shocked face]. I honestly thought that maybe he would be better than that but I guess not. Tomorrow I am taking Mrs. Beren's advice and telling him " Paul, I am not trying to be in a relationship with you. Wednesday night I was just trying to do something out of the norm for me ... I just had no idea that you would start acting so strange. This whole doesn't make me look half as bad as it makes you look since you told me that I could trust you and now you are acting like the stereotypical asshole." Now I am starting to realize that Kole was probably just joking when he said that Paul wanted me yesterday during play practice ...... and when Paul said good bye to me he probably just did it because that ass thinks I like him ..... I mean I liked him enough to make out with him from 6:00-9:30 but JESUS those few hours of hormone bliss is so not worth the after math. When Matt gets home for the holidays I probably shouldn't see him, if I saw him I'd probably tell him, which would make him feel awkward. I guess right now all I want him to tell me it was just a foolish momentary relapse of judegment and not to worry about it, I want him to reassure me that not all boys are just in it so they can tell everyone and just feel good for a couple hours. But if I did tell Matt he would probably just be like "oh okay ..." I DO NOT UNDERSTAND BOYS !! Now I can't wait for school, I can't wait to tell Paul off. God it will feel so good to just tell him what is on my mind ..... I can't believe that I actually thought that there was a chance that him and I would start something, and when I say something I thought that we'd just make out with each other every couple of weeks. but no, he had to go and make this whole thing a mistake. I guess I should feel grateful that he hasn't tried making me sound like a slut (please tell me that isn't coming tomorrow).


Well Ladies and Gentlemen, when I get home from school hopefully I will have the pleasure of writing down that I told Paul off and it made him feel like shit.

Nazi

Today was awkward. I had Kristen and Virginia dragged into my love life (along with most of the drama kids). The dude and I only talked twice today and it consisted of him trying to scare/kill me, and him telling me "good bye megan." I don't see why he is making this so weird between us considering that in no way did I give him the impression that I wanted a relationship.

so where do we go from here ?

I decided to text him .... we texted for a little bit but then he was like "hey i'll text you in a bit." When boys say that it is a bad sign ...... Oh well.



at least I had a good night last night = P

um ..

Megan had an interesting day. It was so weird that I can't even talk about it.
I wish someone would pick up their phone so I could talk them about it BUT she isn't suppose to have a phone DAMN IT !

lucky sweater

Today was really interesting. I learned about imaginary numbers in math, " the square root of negative one equals i". I felt like such a nerd, here I was getting all excited about math wearing a cardigan, glasses, and a plaid scarf. I love math class though, I get to talk to Jeff. Today he brought me his favorite tea, I am so having some with my breakfast tomorrow = )
Tonight I had a National Honors Society meeting, I felt really awkward because I was wearing this really ugly hoodie with fuzz all over it [puts head down]. It was really warm .... that is my excuse, haha. After the meeting I spent thirty minutes in Kate's car telling her about my boy "issues", I can't call them problems just yet. Let's just say that I am getting signals from two guys and I'm not sure if they are being serious or if I am just fun to flirt with. which isnt' a bad thing. Kate and I decided that I just lay low for a couple days and see if either of them try to talk to me, I hope they both do, I really think it would be fun if I was being fought ever.[ won't happen in a million years though].
Funny story. While I was talking to Jessica and Kayla this boy named Conrad came up to us and he put his elbow on my boob and was like " damn I thought that was your shoulder !." I was like "yeah sure ....". I guess I turned red (who wouldn't) and Jessica and Kayla were laughing their asses off because I just looked at Conrad like "you perv ...". I can't wait to see how he acts around me tomorrow. I swear boys have no control over their own body.
Tomorrow I am wearing my new Threadless shirt [weeee].
Saturday I am spending the night at Kristen's !

Today was a good day, thank you world !

music is where i'd like you touch

The band is CSS, and no they didn't name themselve after the video game. My favorite song by them is called "music is my hot,hot sex", yeah I know .. it's a pretty amazing title. Anyone reading this should check the song on itunes and buy it for .99cents. It will be the best money you have ever spent.

So I guess Drew and Hillary went on their first date last night [awwww]. I am so happy for him. Emma saw them at the Parade of lights and I guess they were holding hands and Drew was all smiley. God I miss those days, haha. Not really actually I am having a good time not having to deal with boys. Pretty sure that right now the only real reason I am slightly upset is that I am losing my kissing techniques.

My mom thinks that I need to stop staying home all the time. I mean it probably does look bad that I am always upstairs. Usually I am ......

a. reading
b. doing homework
c. watching movies
d. on my laptop
e. listening to music

While I was at Target with my mom I ran into Emma, and I saw a certain someone .... I saw him with the usual person, duh. I seriously don't know what I see in that boy, I really wish I would just be like "Yo, you are a loser." Mr. Berens says I shouldn't like him because he looks like his mother (She met his mother at parent teacher conferences.)

I started my essay for Humanities, it is about lithography and so far I have a half page finished (is isn't even double-spaced yet.) I finished my nine math problems earlier today so right now I am just reading about lithography and might start reading my other book for awhile (even though it can be boring sometimes.)

I made my famous pasta today for lunch, I'll probably just eat that for dinner tonight. I swear my mom needs to hide the pasta from me, I love pasta. Some are addicted to drugs, sex, and alcohol but me .... I AM ADDICTED TO PASTA

AZ

Three cheers for Tessa's recent blog, it was very amusing to read.
My Threadless shirt came on Friday so guess what I am going to do tomorrow ...
WEAR IT !
Yesterday my mom and I watched V for Vendetta
The Guy Fawkes mask scared the shit out of my mom and all she could say about the movie was " Oh my God he looks like he is smiling 24/7 .... "
When Eve kissed him I had this whole flash back to the movie Revenge of the Nerds
I'm sorry but I couldn't kiss anyone who was wearing a mask .. I would be like
" yeah you say you are [insert name] but how do i really know ...... "
Megan is really hungry for good chocolate, and some pasta .....
Mmmmm choclate and pasta [contemplates going to the store]

[ fifteen minutes later]

I went to the store and got hot dogs, pasta, red peppers, and arizona tea BUT NO CHOCOLATE !

I saw the cute bag boy ... [giggles]

and my parents wonder why I love Albertson's so much

gimme an A

So I spelled "Atonement" wrong, I spelled it with two t's, I suck. haha.
I am only on page 52 right now but so far it is ... interesting.
It is really windy outside, really really windy. I feel like watching a musical right now, hmmmm ... Do I dare go outside ?


[nah]

hide my laptop from me

Got back from the mall an hour ago and I now have a complete idea of what I am going to buy my loving sister.

1. puff the magic book
2. a snow white ornament
3. an itunes gift card
4. a warm scarf
5. a pretty basket for all of her gifts
6. the first season of Psych

Jesus Christ I hate when you are on a website and it randomly starts playing clips and music .... i almost peed my pants. Well anyways .... I drove around for awhile by myself, I went from the mall to around S.Broadway and then my two favorite songs of all time started playing while i had my ipod set to shuffle so I drove around until they finished playing. I am getting really good at driving around town except I am still chicken to drive around Horizon Drive, I don't know what it is about that place but I am so scared that I'll get lost or get killed in a car accident.
[ I have a pretty insane imagination]
While I as at the mall I said hi to Misske, it actually wasn't so bad being alone. Except that people at the stores always seem to want to talk to you more since you have no else to chat with. For awhile I went and looked at pretty jewlery. I wish I was older so it wouldn't look so weird. I mean a 17-year-old looking at diamond rings, alone, is a little weird. ( I bet the lady working thought I was younger). People always seem to think that I am younger than I really am. I think it is my hair, my hair does look really young(ish).
Mom and dad seem to be in better moods with eachother since my dad fixed the light in the kitchen.



= /


I am counting down the days until I don't have to live with them anymore
[ secret of the day.
Sometimes when I am driving around I put what ever ring I am wearing on my wedding ring finger just see what it looks like.

8:59

Woke up today at seven and I drank some chai tea.
Yesterday Mr. Palmer fixed the lights WEE WEE ! I was so proud of him because he usually gets really frustrated and leaves but no he stuck it out and with help from the manuel he was able to figure how to fix the light board. He erased everything on the memory. Starting Monday I am going to start setting cues ( I hope Ellen can help me). I feel bad because when she comes to help me we end up not having anything to do, oops.

I feel like going Christmas shopping today, this year the only person I have to shop for is my sister. I have a few ideas but I think I need some time wandering in the mall just to keep my options open. Right now she is really into t-shirts that say cute/random things. We were looking in this magazine and she found this shirt that has this picture of sushi rolls and above the picture is says "this is how we roll". Now personally I don't think that is THAT funny but oh my jesus Kristen starting laughing so much. So yeah .. [shakes head] Other than that I don't have a clue on what else I should buy her. She likes music but she already has all the music she wants I think. I could buy her some kitchen things but they would most likely end up in her closet unused.[ starts biting nails]. The rule is you have to spend a hundred dollars on your person because the presents you are giving them are the only ones they are getting. hmmmm ....
1. a cute t-shirt
2. My So-Called Life series on dvd
3. a small "purse Bible" [lame but I know she would love that]
4. really pretty chop sticks
5. a really smelly ugly air freshner [ gag gift duh]

Okay so maybe I am good space, I just need to go out and buy the stuff now, lol.

Mom and Dad got in this MONSTEROUS "discussion" earlier today, I love how they call them "discussions". My mom is upset that she doesn't have a lot of closet space [no joke] that is why she is so upset, plus she feels like my dad doesn't like her anymore. I feel sorry for my dad he always get blamed for really stupid shit from my mom. I totally knew that my mom was in a bad mood because when I woke up she was cleaing her room. She rarely cleans early in the morning unless she is upset so I was like "fuck mom is in a bad mood." Dad was suppose to be in Silverthorne but instead he decided not to because of the wheather, I bet he regrets that decision now. When they get into these moods I am so grateful that I have my license because I don't have to stay and listen.

Except today it is really cold outside so I have no idea where I want to go. I could go shopping alone but I always feel really bogus shopping alone on Saturdays ( I also hate eating alone at places). Earlier this month I went to Juice Stop alone and I felt like everyone was staring at me while I was sitting down and waiting for my smoothie. Finally I took out my zombie book and started reading it, after that I felt a little bit better.

I have an essay to write for Humanities but right now I am not in the mood to actually do anything protuctive. I really feel like going to Albertsons and striking up a conversation with the cute bag boy/cart boy. He always looks so cute when he is gathering carts because he actually wears the little orange vest [ahhh]. I looked him up in the yearbook and he should be a senior this year but I haven't seen him at school this year, maybe he goes to Junction ..... I might go later to pick up the stuff I need for my pasta that I make. I think I'll cook for my parents today.

Things I should do today

1. read Attonement
2. buy some food
3. go to the mall
4. decided whether or not I am going to text Jeff
5. brush my teeth and get dressed (this should be number one)
6. drive around aimlessly
7. watch "Fat Camp 2"

gimme a B

I spelled Bellwether wrong on this blog a couple of days ago it isn't "bellweather"
it is Bellwether. It is a book written by Connie Willis and is really good =)

Bellwether

Mr.Palmer I am not a dumbass
I spelled BELLWETHER right !
thank you Chelsea and Natalie for sticking up for me
I am sick of people assuming I am a dumb shit
[over it]
Wait ! not yet, I am sick of doing the lights too
So I might not even finish it out for this play, I'll set them but after that someone else can push the button up and down, a fucking monkey can do it.
Today I presented my favorite song in class it went pretty well
I also found out that I got an A on my essay for Palmer [yay]
but sadly I probably failed my espanol examen today [fuuuuck]


The college radio played The Hives today AND some really good ska AND this awesome song that sounded a lot like DEVO.

dos tests oh my !

Tomorrow I have to take a U.S History test AND an espanol examen [fuck]
I grabbed an application for Juice Stop on my way home today
I finished my AP 2 homework
I don't want anyone feeling sorry for me
I am great I promise and I'll be even better when tomorrow is over with = P




I should go do the rest of my homework
l8er

esqueeze me baking powder

conclusion

I have decided to do my project on soul meets bodyem by death cab for cutie because my mom reminded me of how I use to listen to that song EVERYTIME we went somewhere. It holds a lot of memories for me, that was the song that made me want to play guitar well, it helped me realize the power of words, and it was the first song I ever cried to. I guess I didn't want to pick that one at first because it reminds me of better times before I had to worry about things (two yrs. ago) Today Jessica told me she misses last year, I told her I did too. It's great remembering the past but all it leads to is depression, that is why I am focusing on the present, and right now that means me finishing my math homework and reading the rest of Bellweather OH plus I need to read page 98 in "The Oxford Book of Essays."
woo ...



I ordered a new Threadless shirt this weekend, I really hope it comes soon because it is REALLY REALLY cute [ it has three birds on a powerline with a bat ] I will put a picture of it on here sometime = )

Flo looked really hot today
so did Mr. Hicks

[ okay so maybe I want to rape my physical science teacher don't judge me]

you would to if you saw him [rawr]

title and registration or such great heights

I am having trouble coming up with my favorite song, the assignment is due on Wedesday and Jesus ! I had no idea that I was so picky about music. On my way today I listened to some Sounds but I can't choose any of their songs because a) most of them have sexual references and b)they don't move me emotion wise. I love so many songs but very few of them hit me in that small place in my rib cage. "Sound of silence" by Simon and Garfunkel does but I'm not sure I want to talk to the kids in my Humanities class about how that song makes me feel (it's complicated). No offense but those kids wouldn't understand and would most likely look at me like I am a pansy. OH WELL.

Play practice was really boring today because we still haven't programmed the lights. After Liz has numbered the lights I can add the ques which will give the play more "life". Ellen is doing the lights with me and I am so glad because today she bought chocolate (Jared ate a lot of it though) I was a little miffed but decided that the more he eats the less I eat which will help me not get fat(er).

list of possible favorite songs

1. living room - tegan and sara
2. soul meets body - DCFC
3. title and registration - DCFC
4. such great heights - postal service
5. hit me - the sounds
6. sound of silence - s&g


give me your imput, out of those songs what would you guys choose ?

Sunday Morning

Went to Sunday school today and then came home, wow my life is so exciting. Last night Kristen and I saw "Dan in real life", it was a great movie ! I'm not even joking. We really wanted to see "August Rush" but a certain boy that will remain nameless called me and told me that the movie sucked (unless I was on a date) yeah I like Kristen Hall but I don't "like" her ... that is why we ended up seeing another movie. I got home at 10:40 (ish) and around twelve my phone started ringing .... I answered it without seeing who was on the line and this is what I heard.

me: uh hello ?
mom : MEGAN WHERE ARE YOU ?
me : huh .... mom ?
mom : do you know what time it is ? It is twelve !
me : mom I'm in my room ... sleeping
mom : oh, I didn't see you when I opened the door,bye.

Sometimes I really wonder about my parents [rolls eyes] After that little conversation my mom came into my room and gave me this huge hug and told me how much I worried her. I guess she thought I was going to sleep in the guest bedroom because my pillow and blanket were in there so when she looked and didn't see me she freaked .... she looked in my real room but she didn't see my body under the cover (how she didn't see my fat body I have no clue) and that was when she decided to call my cell and yell at me

silly mommy go back to sleep.

Last night Kristen and I went to Barnes and Noble after the movie, her and I played chess and SHE BEAT ME !! But it is okay because I was drinking this amazing italian cream soda (raspberry flavored).

I am lazy, tomorrow I am going to start writing my essays for Humanities and Choir, I am also going to go workout, running might help me feel better. This weekend when kevin and I went on that intense hike it felt so good to sweat and catch my breath, I need to feel that more. 2008 I am going to dedicate all my time to bettering myself, I swear I don't take care of myself.

silly little quiz

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i feel like i am on crazy pills

I shouldn't admit this but I really like this show

I haven't driven in two days and I am going crazy ! Driving time is MY time.
I could go for a little ride but this Thanksgiving I have been extremely lazy (minus that huge hike Kevin and I went on). We've decided he's not meant to be with his on-off girlfriend Julie because the last couple of time he's hung out with her he's gotten food poisoning. Isn't that weird ? Kevin was trying to get me to talk to him about life but I really wasn't in the mood to be deep, plus he's my brother.
God I love ANTM ! When I grow up I am going to be a model, first I need to gain a couple inches, shit.
Last week was hell, I hate going school before a break, I can't focus.
[mental note] I need to stop talking to Jeff during math because I failed my last math test.


I thought this entry was going to be much more exciting but I guess not.

Enstroms

while all of you guys are at school right now i am sitting at Enstrom's drinking a raspberry italian cream soda and watching one cute guy make chocolate .... life is good = ) haha Kate Connor is probably really jealou seeing as she <3's italian cream sodas now. i am such a loser, i came to Enstrom's to check my mail because i wasn't ready to go home ...... [don't judge me] if you every want to ditch and come to Enstrom's I would highly recommend it (come to the one in GJ the one in Fruita only has one computer, and NO CUTE BOYS MAKING CHOCOLATE ! haha, well love

wow, so not my day

Today i found out that Matt is coming on Saturday, and the next day is leaving for Durango ...... and then back to CU

fuck high school and the clicks

Today I realized something. I'm too preppy to get respect from the Indie kids and I'm too indie to get any respect from the preppy kids. No click wants me. Today I realized that I am tired of hearing about sex and drugs. I am waiting for the right guy to make to, and I promised my parents I would never try drugs. All of my cousins on my mothers side experimented with pot when they were in high school and now, twenty years later, one is in prison, one is STILL hooked on pot and is now an alcoholic, and the other one ..... is a truck driver that get high in between trips. I AM FUCKING SICK OF SEXS AND DRUGS ! When you see me in the halls don't talk to me about those things, I don't fucking care ! Today I realized that most of my friends aren't friends but ....... [my use to be friends]. Now they have formed clicks between themselves and I am out of the loop. Now Kate D. hangs out with Virginia, Danny, Kole, and Kristen H. It sucks that they don't want to hang out with me, but oh well, I'm sick of dwelling ..... Oh and I am really tired of hearing the same excuse " I am busy this weekend .... " Yeah it would be easier to believe if I DIDN'T hear that excuse all the time. [disclaimer] I appreciate that I still have [ use to be friends] don't get me wrong. I just want to know when I got out of the loop. Last school year I didn't hang out with people a lot either but at least last year I had Matt. I had no idea that hanging out with him would ruin all of my friendships, now I'm mattless and friendless. Oh and just to let you know I DON'T LIKE JEFF ! Today we high fived and pretty sure neither of us let go because we thought the other would, it looked awkward and I looked like I was trying to hold hands with him. RAWR ! Today I realized high school sucks when no one notices you. Today I realized I have some how become the girl that you talk to during school but never hang out with in the real world ....... I can't wait till I get out of Fucking GrandFUCKtion.

math homework

i haven't done math homework in three days I keep on forgetting my fucking math book ... This weekend was good, minus the fact that I felt like a total troll next to Kate Connor all weekend ( I felt my skin turning green ) Honestly my friends are so beautiful and have awesome style. Pretty sure this is the week that I think I am ugly ( I have one of those every few weeks )
[please disregard this blog entry]
I am not fascinating right now, and I am not very postive.

1. Humanities is a complete joke
2. I haven't done my homework in three days (my fault)
3. I haven't boughten my book for AP yet (my fault)
4. [ I feel invisible ] (my fault)

Damas

Today I had to take an espanol examen, it was horrible, and RIGHT after that Mr.Davis told me my grade, I HAVE A B ! Yeah I know, I was shocked too ..... So I rarely got online anymore, it's not because I don't love you guys, it's becuase I am freaking busy with school and ......... [insert something witty]. Ginny and Kole are getting really close and it is really freaking me out, I know that eventually I won't be friends with her ( we are going to seperate colleges and I don't have myspace) but I REALLY don't want to lose our friendship because of Kole. I wish I was friends with him but it's just never really happened, this sounds weird but I really want to get to know Wes ..... last year we'd talk after school and I have developed some what of a girlish crush on him. Which is a good transition to my next topic JEFF. Today I found out that Jeff has a man crush on Adam Brody AND he use to lvoe watching the movie Grind. When I found that out I literally almost kissed him, like my lips were puckering. Someday I will hang out with that boy outside of school, you have my word. I have lots of homework to do tonight for AP and Humanities. Mom and I are going to watch a movie, and we are going to go to the Pita Pit for dinner Mmmmmm.

Ms. Berens let me leave 45 minutes early
suchs for all you guys that actually have to stay until the bell rings = P

typical

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You attract artsy people!
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but you already knew that = P

wake up

why the hell am i up at 5:46 you ask, i have no clue. there i was sleeping [ i tend to do that at night] and suddenly i got this huge urge to pee and to get on the internet. haha. mom made some sticky puns so i am going to go heat one of those up and watch some t.v until i pass out. today i have to do homework [ i am actually doing homework at home now] and i need to watch P & P. Last night i watched "about a boy" and i fell in love with Hugh Grant all over again. That movie makes me want to be British and to have a short boy cut. i asked my mom if i could cut my hair and she said it would be all right. her and i both agree that my hair makes me look young, and i don't want to be young looking. school is going pretty well right now, i STILL need to turn a rhetorical worksheet in to Mr. Palmer. i probably have a "C" in that class. oh well ....... Last night i finished reading "hairstyles of the damned", because of that book i am going out today and buying some punk music to listen to ....... that another thing, when i cut my hair like a boy hair cut i am probably going to die it some crazy color too [ i am totally bullshitting myself]. it sounded cool though. i need some spice in my life. on the 12th i have an appointment with my counsler to talk about college and on monday and tuesday of this week i will be HOME ALONE ! my parents have to go to Denver with my sister for a doctor's appt. so i am volunteered to stay home and cat/dog sit. my parents are freaking out about it, i think it sounds sorta fun. BUT if i get scared i am totally coming over to one of my friends pad's and staying.

SHIT GODDAMN

Sushi was fun. Minus the check, but we won't get into the check. I gave Anna Mudd a ride home, another one that lives in FRUITA ! I really need to stop giving them rides home [ unless they pay for gass]. Oh and i love how i vent to Tessa about Matt and when i get home i have an e-mail from him asking me how school is going .... I can't talk to him right now though, after the dream i had last nigt, where he replaced me and didn't tell me until she showed up ........... it is just really weird composing an e-mail to him. I HATE MEN ! Seriously though, I am really jealous of Virginia and Kate, they have boys that are interested in them. The only thing i've gotten in months is " Megan are you showing me your tits ?" and Billy biting me. I've gotten to the point where now i don't give a shit what Billy does, he grabbed my ass and i was like " hmmm that made you week didn't it [walks away]" Honestly though ..... Megan wants a someone that doesn't use the words "tits" and doesn't tell me they "need some really badly." Where did all the good men go ?



I think i ate too much.

"D"

Yesterday I just picked up a lot of trash, at the end of it all, my hands felt like garbage, lol. Yesterday i also decided that I might ask Jeff to Wild West, MIGHT ! We ( Marie, Virginia, and I ) decided he'd be an awesome date but I am still not sure what his reaction would be. During math class we talk a lot ( some may even say flirt ) but somehow i think he'd feel too awkward, oh well ....

I have an urge to watch scary movies ...... "30 Days of Night" is coming out tonight so I might try and find someone to see it with. I know Megan Weeden wanted to see it but she is going with Calvin. They are really cute together, I guess they are going to get married and I am invited to the wedding, haha. shweet.

Later I think I should go get dressed even though it is my day off and I should just sleep.
[funny story]
yesterday during math class Jeff told me that girls with size "d" breasts were fat. me, being me, was like " um jeff i size 34 d and i'm not fat .... " Let's just say Jeff's eyes got HUGE and i don't think he thought about anything after that little comment. sometimes i need to just keep my mouth shut.

raspberry jam !

My last post has many spelling errors and punctuation errors. When i got on my blog it's as if all of my knowledge about the English language disappears. My blog is a huge pile of my random thoughts and ideas. sorry if it's hard to read/understand. When i am typing the entries (or even reading them out loud) they make sense to me.

Today i watched the following movies.

Venom
When a Stranger Calls

DON"T JUDGE ME !

apple jam !

tomorrow i have a concert ....
i also have a grammer quiz, a spanish mid term, and a math test
YAY ! [shoot me now]
tomorrow i am also NOT driving
i forgot to put gas in my car, and me, being lazy has decided to grace the bus with my presence. lol.
stephani bought me this amazing book " the zombie survival guide" and i have been reading it non stop
i stayed after school today and finished my art final, i am so glad i got that over with !
Mr.Vanpelt is the cutest teacher ever, today he wore a shirt with a dragon on it.
my top favorite teachers are ......
1. VP
2. Davis
3. Hicks (based on appearance = P )
rumor is Jo broke up with Kristen, i want to cut that bastards balls off ......
i really hate how i jinx people just a couple days ago i was like " kristen and jo are going to make it all through high school ........ " oops ......
honestly boys are so stupid, last week i heard this two boys talking and one called the other a "little vagina"

COME ON NOW PEOPLE !
you never hear girls saying 'God Tessa you are such a little penis ! '

which leads me into my next topic, i had a blast with tessa this weekend = ) even if we almost got murdered and i almost hit a car at VI hehe
last night at GS pretty sure Kayla and I got into this strange conversation about sex, love, and marriages. it was so nice talking to her one-on-one, like it old days. we might make cookies tomorrow. even if we aren't tight tight i'm still glad we can have a blast together. that is one of the reasons i decided not to quit GS i would really miss the bonds i have made in my six years. [ so sappy]

hey hey

this is me at stephani's before the dance rockin' my amazing glasses and my new necklace. the dress is from last year's white nights because i am THAT cheap. lol.

i had so much fun last night !

nice talking to you man

matt : i like upper classman more, they are in there 20's, have jobs, and are getting some.

me : "getting some" ?

matt : jobs they are getting jobs

me: oops that's not a sex refrences ...

matt : you should know me better then that, lol. people here all think i am a hardcore christian or mormon.

me : loser

[later on]

matt : i only have .50 cents

me: sell your body, you'll make some good money

matt :haha

me : or donate blood ( i go with the selling of the body though) i hate needles

matt : um, lol. yeah needles hurt

matt and i are going to become prostitutes

i haven't figured how much everything is worth ....

last night i realized i am sorta slutty .....

homecoming

pretty sure i danced more then i have ever danced before last night. i love dances, you can be a total slut and get away with it is amazing, haha. tessa and i got ready at stephani's house and wow ! she has an amazing house, i made her pull my car out for me because i was like " yeah if i hit one of these cars (one of them a mercedes) i am going to be shanked .... "' i felt really lame but oh well ....... i drove so much yesterday that by the end of it i decided that i am probably going to ride the bus for awhile once the play is over. i love having my license, but i miss having my parents give me rides just because that was our bonding time.
[but back to the dance]
even thought tessa, stephani, and i were the only one that didn't have dates i still had an amazing time. i mean i got to dance with all of them to radical rap music and it was so hilarious KOLE KISSED JARED ! apparently some bandana boys were staring at stephani and i, pretty sure i'm thinking they were staring at me because i dance like a spaz. no joke. lehi and i tried mimicking each other but it totally didn't work out right, i was glad he got to come. Andew (kate's date) seemed cool he tried teaching me this shoulder thingy. i was only slightly jealous that all my friends had dates, i mean it ALWAYS makes you feel bad when you have to stop dancing with everyone because they are buddying up with their dates. next dance stephani and i promised each other that we'd both have dates or we'd have to cut two inches of our hair off [ don't ask me why she thought of that]
i drove kayla and jared around last night and we had to go through the McDonalds drive-though twice because i didn't grap everything. HEY IT WAS TWELVE AT NGHT GET OFF MY BACK !


hmmm ..... i need to go and drive to church
need to repent for all that dirty dancing
and the fact that i thought to myself last night " ben is really hot ! "
hey he was wearing a white bandada, i LOVE boys that wear those ........... anyway
tomorrow is monday
kill me !

birthday

seventeen, wow. today i talked to all my siblings, and went out to eat with mi padres and my abuela. we went to fiesta and it was asi asi. i was really tired because i didn't get home till six from the parade. pretty sure that next year key club is kicking the art clubs ass next year. while at the parade i realized that mr. davis has the prettiest eyes ever ........ yeah i admit it, i have a crush on mr. davis ........ um .... ehh ...... shit. i got some awesome cards from people today, and marie took me out to lunch [ i love my friends] and tubberware boy sent me an e-mail of his face smiling wishing me a happy birthday, i guess his bike got stolen. he wanted to thank me for being an awesome person to talk to, and he said he was coming down in nov. and he could understand if i didn't want to see him. i don't really know how to reply ..... but anyways i have really bad grades right now. i have 2 A's, 1 c, and the rest are b's ..... ARGH ! but i will so have an A in printmaking and a b in U.S once Mr.Mckee uploads grades. but anyways ...... yeah i am seventeen today. it was a good day.

tomorrow i get my license ! actually i just take my test but oh well .. the next day i will get my license
= )



[good birthday over all]

i am joining cross country next year so people can see what real boobs look like ... running
too bad steve won't be on the team, he is HOT !

God i can't believe i admitted to liking Mr.Davis, i met his wife, and he had a daughter named megan. yeah this is really creepy i'm sorry.

+ 10 points to matt for replying to my first e-mail, sending me an instant message, A ND sending me a picture and a happy birthday e-mail. [ maybe i'll forgive you for being rude]

saw billy today during the parade, my heart skipped
i want to see him in body paint
sorry i am so boy crazy
snoopy might go to the dance w/ lehi

it's all down hill from here

i should have never gotten onto facebook. i clicked on "find a friend" and it said to enter your yahoo, google, or msn information, now i thought that entering that stuff would allow me to search for any one but oh now, since i entered my yahoo account only one person appeared ... matt. at first i thought that i shouldn't click on matt's friends but my curiosity totally took over, needless to say i clicked it. i saw a lot of girls, a lot of pretty from BOULDER ! and yeah it's now making me think that i should e-mail him and just express my feelings to him. this is what i was going to say .

"hey i was at fruita fall festival last night and i saw your parents, they need some help figuring out how to view those pictures you sent them so you might help them out. your mom asked what i had been up to and i told her i was in key club and had just finished making a the float for the parade. you mom and dad now think that ben should join,( i warned them that he would be one of two boys.) i'm really sorry i asked why you were talking to me a couple night ago, after you left i realized how insanely rude that probably sounded. it's not that i don't want to talk to you, that's not the case at all. it's just really weird when you get on and tell me that you don't want to come down because you know you'll never see any of the people there ever again and when you don't even comment when i say "we'd all like see you." i know things will be different between us when you come visit, i guess i just need to know how different. the last time i saw you we kissed and i asked you if that was the last kiss i'd be getting for awhile, and you said "yeah". that reply made me think that when you'd get home you'd still like me, but now i'm not so sure. it's not fair for me to think that you'll still like me when you come home, and when you get here there be nothing between us. i have a picture of you on my binder in this collage i made and people always ask me if you and i are still dating, before i take out i need to know what our status is. today i got a facebook account and i was considering adding you but before i did that i looked at your friends, and i saw some girls from CU. it made me realize how stupid it seems for me to think that you, a college freshman, would still like a junior in high school you haven't seen since August. was that kiss we shared the day before you left the last one we'll ever have, or do you think we can still have feeling for each other when you come home ? "

that's what i was going to say to him, let me know what you think, i need some opinions.

fruita fall feast

i stayed there from 5:30-10:00 ! At first it was anita, virginia, and i but then they had to leave so i started hanging out with kate d., kristin hall, and jared. it was pretty fun minus me walking by the Hot Tomato booth a million times and each time looking at billy, i really feel sorry for you billy. he is just really cute, and i guess he looks a lot like virginia's clayton, lol. something also happened that i am still recovering from. I SAW MATT'S PARENTS ! yeah anita was like " look it's matt's parents .. " now i think i said shit under my breath because ever since him and i went outside to " find his glasses" really late in their backyard i was convinced that they didn't like me. then i saw them last night, i yelled "KATHY " and then we all started walking across the street to say hi to each other, she gave me a hug and we just started talking. matt told me he'd e-mail me pics of his dorm, which he never did, but i guess he did to his parents. and he also said he didn't talk much to his parents, but what i got from the conversation they know a lot. bleh if matt started , or is , telling me little lies i am going to be even more pissed off with him. but anyways .... we talked, they asked me how life is, and then when kathy hugged me to tell me good-bye she told me to come by, to see her. i don't know but that made me really sad. i told kathy we should have a girl's movie night but it never happened and i think she is feeling lonely. matt was the baby of the family, i mean even his little brother hung out more with friends and did more on the weekends. so yeah, out of all the people i would've seen and wanted to see i see his parents. life can be cruel, very cruel ..... four more days till my birthday. this will sound rude but it he doesn't at least write me an e-mail saying happy birthday i will will be pissed ....... but at least they will really show me how much i mean to him. nothing.

on a lighter note, i should write a sex book. i gave kristen advice on what she should do to jo, i told her she need to kiss his stomach [ shirt on] and then slowly start bringing it up kissing his stomach as you do so, i guess he turned into jelly .... told you so kristin. it was just really funny because she was like " megan is worked ! " i love how random things happen like that.. oh i and i need to get pregnant. i found the cutest hippie clothes at the fruita fall feast. maybe i should exchange that hat for sex with ian, he could totally give me the cutest hippie baby ever !

i am reading the ginger man and wow it is very very interesting. dangerfield is a strange man, and his wife if effing clueless .... but then again most women are.

kate d. and i are now hat buddies, her is awesome, and i am very glad that andrew texted her from a mini bus on their way to a soccer game. they are so going to date, and when they've dated for awhile she can do the kissing the stomach trick on him, it's fun seeing boys turn into jello. once i was about to do that to matt, but i was starting out kissing his neck, i had jeopardy on [don't ask me why] and you know i'm kissing him and then all of a sudden i hear " PLAYSTATION THREE ... i just won seven hundred bucks .... " let's just say i was a little miffed, matt explained it to me that he was into the kissing, it was just that he never gets those questions right so he was a little excited that he knew it. [boys]


i need to make my perfect boy.
i need to rent weird science .... lol

i like phish food more than cherry garcia

today i placed an order for a hippie hat, oh yes i am THAT cool. i was in printmaking and i had nothing to do so i decided to go talk with one of the cute hippie boys.

wow you draw circles really well free handed
thanks, here let me show you how .... it's harder then it looks, see i can't draw one now ....
i like your hat
i made it myself, do you want one ? me and Tim make um, we went to Vermont and Canada and we made hats and partied with the money .... what colors .......
red, purple, and green
sweet ... how many X's ?
um ..... excuse me ...
do you want it really floppy or slightly floppy ?
slightly ....
okay i will put you down as one x, and for you it'll only be 10 dollars [smiles]

now let's see how long it takes him to actually make it for me ... 10 bucks says he never makes it ....

two miles

I RAN TODAY !
mom and i went and worked out from 5:30 to seven.
i haven't started any of my homework yet but oh well !
I WORKED OUT !

i have to do some math homework before i go to bed, which will probably be at eleven.
1. pg 144-145 1-45 odd
2. read through chapter seven by thursday in the ginger man
3. TWO CURRENT EVENTS

back seats are sexy

it's official, i need a boy that will drive around with me.

1. Wal Mart

2. Target for ICEES
3. a random trail
4. a park to swing and or play chess at
5. will listen to Brand New and all of my other great music ridiculously loud with me
6. someone to kiss when we are in the parking lot [ i apologize for those poor people walking by = P ]
7. someone to hold hands with while driving, i know driving with one hand is unsafe but screw that

I FORGOT MY MATH BOOK AGAIN !

i fail at life
[final note]

the new pornographers are amazing ....

side-side-note

those balls are called boba

andi forgot to tell you, i spent most of friday at the Division of Wildlife office. my brother showed me around, introduced me to people, and i got to see my one of my favorite family friends Harrietta. the coolest guy i met though was the one that introced to me to lollicup. he was like " brandon take megan to lollicup and make her try boba"

NOW I LOVE IT

MMM

red hat

this weekend i bought i new red hat, it was for six dollars at an army surplus store = ) but that's not all, i also tried my first lollicup, God it was amazing. it was this drink (milk tea) and there were HUGE balls of tapioca at the bottom that you suck up with an amazing straw, i hope i brought it home .....

on friday we (my family and jeff) went to Chedd's, it was hilarious being at this really hip dive with my parents, they seemed so lost. i had the yoga teacher it was muy bien ! while i was there i saw all this posters for up coming concerts and needless to say i am now trying to go to all of them [ but will most likely not go to any of them] you see, yesterday everything went totally wrong. saturday started out incrediable, i bought my new hat, got a lollicup, went to Best Buy with my brothers, flirted w/cute boys at Apple .... then after dinner my dad and my brother got in this HUGE fight, it ended with my dad leaving the room right when kevin yelled "fuck you !" yeah after that everything went down hill fast, my sister started crying, my dad refused to believe that anything was wrong, and kevin decided to walk his dogs .... until three o'clock in the morning. at first i thought everything would be okay today but when i found out that kevin didn't get home till three i knew that i was wrong. so lara (my sister-in-law) decided to take me to Cherry Creek to get my hair done today, it was really expensive, and to be honest, it looks no different ....... it feels better though. gahhh. lara let me drive in Denver, it was really fun, i am really glad i have her around. she told me the funniest story, i guess her and her high school boyfriend, at least one of them, got kicked out of Macy's because they were fooling around in the dressing room. i loved it because lara was like " he had a porsche ..... so that makes it okay to be a slut"

so i guess two years ago my brother's ex-girlfiend Julie, tried getting him to move with her to Australia, she told him he didn't even have to work there, she would pay for everything as long as he married her ..... i can't believe she liked him THAT much. no offense i love kevin a lot but that really pisses me off that she was willing to give him that much and he turned it down. they dated for eleven years so i guess that was an inclination that he didn't want to marry her but still. they are still friends, and i wish she would tell him to fuck off. he thinks he is so cool. if you need an example he still wears these glasses from the 80's he use to life guard in. but it sucks that he is mad at my family because he was going to take me to see one of my bands for my birthday but i highly doubt that is going to happen now. he wouldn't celebrate brandon's , my dad's, and my birthday with us at brandon's house today. goes to show you how my family is (i get sick of it)

10 days till my birthday, 11 till my license.

i have a purple ipod sock for my ipod, it is pretty rockin'
i think i am going to move to Denver after highschool
i have yet to work on my homework
i am in a bad mood
need food .......


oh f.y.i the dude i flirted with turned out to be married. his name is David and everytime i go to the Apple he is the one that helps me and my family. up until yesterday i never bothered to look at his ring finger. BASTARD ! i guess i'll have to go find some one at the Guster concert = P

my obsession

let's get fucked up and die

1. Let's get fucked up and die - Motion City Soundtrack
2. Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
3. Jesus Christ - Brand New
4. Don't cry out - Shiny Toy Guns
5. Sound of silence - Simon and Garfunkel

[my mix of the day]


e-mailed matt, i got a reply, but only one. it's offically been on month since i've seen him.
[lonely]

tomorrow i am leaving for Denver and i can't wait to get out of Grand Junction ! i am buying virginia's b-day present there, so i am pretty excited.

= ( + = )

not worth it

I QUIT !

you hear me, megan velarde has quit Girl Scout offically. our meeting started out with no one saying hi to me except for Shellie [which i thought was weird] and Lisa and Shellie turning my idea down for a final project because it wasn't constant. funny how when Jennifer (her daughter) came up with an idea that wasn't CONSTANT somehow it became okay for her to do it. i am sick of being around fake people, and honestly i don't feel bad at all. i have been in girl scouts since 4th grade and i have recieced my bronze and silver award.

FYI

thank you Kate for filling me in on the shorts, now my next question is why did they take their design from the stickers red necks have on their cars ? you soccer people are crazy.

today i played online chess all day and i didn't win, not even once. that is how pathetic i am at that game. i need a chess teacher if anyone is interested, lol. i left all of my homework at school so i had nothing to do all day except sleep and play around with my computer. it was actually quite nice considering i have been gone all weekend. next weekend, if all goes according to plan i will be in Denver with mi familia, that is if my mom doesn't have a mental breakdown. she had one today at 8:00 pm. and now her and my dad are downstairs talking in loud voices, hence why i am up (usually i am in bed around nine on school nights)

motion city has a new album coming out on the eighteeth.

people cake and millie

I AM TIRED

just got home from Marie's birthday party and jesus i ate a lot. yesterday we ate homemade bread, chips and dip, creepy chips that looked like fingers, pizza, cupcakes, people cake, and danish pancakes. it was amazing.
i went to the mall yesterday and bought a giraffe for my car and i got an icee cup that i am going to keep forever so i can get free refills. kate connor taught me that trick yesterday and the guys working at Target didn't tell us a thing. it was so cool. we went to a soccer game at MSC as well and that sport is now my favorite. kate d. and i are going to go to the GJ and Fruita game on Tuesday. she is going to talk to her man OR ELSE I WILL KILL HER ! emma and i want to kidnapp him when kate asks him to homecoming .. we are going to wear orange ski masks, IT WILL BE FUCKING AMAZING.

i had fun the kate's and virignia yesterday. i had so much fun in kate's car, we rode with the sun roof down while it was raining. = ) . too bad i have a lot of homework today or else it would've been the perfect day.


emma cussed a lot yesteday and it made my week.

7/12

that is how many people showed up to the sushi night. and it ended up being really fun. tessa kept telling me to calm down because i was freaked out that no one would show. I NEED TO TAKE CHILL PILLS ! i had a quick, but pretty interesting conversation about sex with kristen and Borders. it was effing hilarious. we are sitting there, my legs are crossed and her and i are talking about sex. " so if you kiss there stomachs they become like jello, it works." i bought The Great Gatsby which i am going to read right after i finish F451 ( i am tired therefore i am not going to type that title all the way).

i am getting a hair cut !

Flo talked to me today after school, pretty sure he made me giggle like a school girl when he gave me the thumbs up ..... i feel so lame being excited over him = P but oh well virginia even admitted (as well as Tessa) that this boy is cute ... i was just slightly disturbed by the fact that his shorts has outlines of women on them, and you could totally tell because they had boobs. virginia and i were staring at his pants like ...... boobs ..... wait ..... girls on his shorts ?

bleh , so i am coming down with a cold and i have a birthday tomorrow and i am looking for a birthday present for marie and maybe homecoming dresses. I HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE !

flo > matt
[subject to change]


g'night, i am going to go sleep . MMmmmm

cookies kick ass

okay i have the hots for a german boy ....
and not only that
A GERMAN BOY WITH SHORT SHORTS !
honestly ......

tonight i am going out to sushi ! pretty excited !
and i get my license in two weeks !

rating of the day - MUY BIEN

study session 8:00

MY LUCK SUCKS !

the weekend i am going to Denver ,Matt is going to Ft. Collins to see his Uncle ....
[momentary minute of sadness]

megan is missing matt again. everytime i go by the park in the ridges i think about when we went at eight at night and played on the equipment even thought it was freezing .... he kissed me upside down in the tubes [ it was almost perfect except he was sitting on my hair]. afterwards he came back to my house and we played with play doh and watched the batman movies. FUCK ! Jesus i hate memory lane sometimes ....... i am going to go take a shower and get my mind off of him.

i send letters to him from the future

the cheesecake at Garfields is effing sinful !

We saw Kate and work and she gave me a coloring sheet and some nifty crayons to use, i didn't finish because it is really hard to color well when you have butter everywhere.

1. i had fun at lunch with tessa and stephanie
2. flo and i talked a lot
side note : misseke has decided i need to reproduce with Flo so we can have cute german/hispanic babies
3. i am finding all the episodes of The Office online
4. my ipod is full, and filled with awesome music !
play list for today : "teenagers" , "sunshine (go away today)","tick tick boom"," i bet you look good on the dance floor", and " i believe in symmetry".
5. i am starting pilates and Tessa and Steph are joining me
6. SUSHI NIGHT
7. 20 days till i get my license !


boys crying is a turn on ..... [ blaim MTV for that comment]

doctors visits

today i got out of school early, but it wasn't that much fun. i had to go to a doctor's appointment for my scoliosis. i have an "s" curve of the spine plus another curve. she also pointed out that my back curves in ward which explains why i always feel weird when i stand tall. she gave me props on my posture though, i felt pretty proud. of course right after my mom had to add " this is the first day in months that she has had good posture .... " but oh no she didn't stop there, she also added that " i don't' really do anything." [she has also been getting on me to eat better] mind you this is after she get KFC for dinner AND says we are going to have SONIC for dinner tonight ......

after my two hour long apt. mom and i went and i am now a member of crossroads fitness center. my first Pilate's class is this Thursday.

[ i am seeing how long it takes for mom to actually go and work out]

today i was thinking about the future, at for the first time in awhile i was looking forward to it. right now i am so excited to get out of high school and go somewhere new. sure i have no idea where that will be but at least i am happy about the future. the strangest thing about me being happy about that is i am mostly looking forward to being married and having kids. which is incredibly strange for a sixteen [ almost seventeen ] year old girl to think. honestly today, and for the past week i have been coming up with names for the kids i want to have, and i have been thinking about where i want to go on my honeymoon, and what i want to cook for our first meal together. i swear i am insane sometimes.

i was reading one of my friend's blogs today and i realized, how much i wish i knew about them. it is sad that reading that made me realize how much i miss from being so caught up in what is going on in my life. i'm not a very good friends when it comes to that sort of thing. actually to be totally honest i don't think i am a very good friends at all. i want everyone to care about what is going on in my life but it seems like i very rarely ask them questions, i just wait for them to ask me questions. i hope the older i get the better i am at understanding people more, because right now i am not very good. i know my friends think i am funny but i honestly don't see why i get invited to do things. maybe right now in my life i am unsure of everything.

today i was just joking around with this boy named Drew, we were talking about short shorts and the he asked me if just wanted to check him out, jokingly i said "yeah" and his next comment was " gross." yeah i was secretly embarressed inside. i'm so use to a boy that actually liked it when i said things like that. i guess that was my first time in awhile that i remembered that most boys don't like me. i'm not sure if it is the fact that i wear weird clothes, or the fact that i am slightly bigger. or maybe the fact that i am slightly shy. i think i am a great catch, i like video games, movies, and just doing random things. i don't like anyone right now, frankly right now ever boys scares the shit out of me.

i have some things i need to think about.

not another teen blog

i am really tired







today was asi asi, i have a spanish test tomorrow so i am really worried .... even though i have over a hundred in that class i will most likely screw up [ i always do ] this sounds really strange but today i feel really cute, i'm talkin' i am so full of myself right now, it's great.


Kayla has a boyfriend and i am really happy for her.



today i saw matt reading Dracula and i think i freaked out billy because i stare at him so much during Modern lit. i try not to look at him so much but he is just so cute. i honestly wish i could find someone with "the matt's" attractiveness/personality and billy's intellect.

right now i am watching worst movie ever not another teen movie for some odd reason i thought it might be funny but it has way too many dick jokes ... bleh


i am suppose to go to Denver sept. 21st, mom wants me to go see Matt at CU but i'm really scared .... what if he doesn't want to see me ?











espanol exam with kick my ass tomorrow wish me luck .....

this is brighteyes .. he's my new boyfriend and he sings " i believe in symmetry"