WARNING !

there is temptation

for the past four days i have been eyeing this boy in my US History class and today a couple of my friends saw him and when i told them i had a class with him they all wanted to know his name and know if i had talked to him. me being shy said no and RIGHT after i had that conversation guess what happened ...... he noticed me. i was studying for our map test and he looked over at me and gave this really really cute giggle ... now at this point i am thinking " oh my God he is making fun of my earrings and shoes .... they match and are both leapard print ... shit " but then after that he started talking to me and suddenly i turned into this lame girl telling this attractive boy about lame tricks to remember states and capitals " new hampshire's capital is Concord think about grapes ! " now at this point he is laughing and he has an amazing smile ....... but all my hopes crashed down really quickly when he started talking to this boy about the cute girls he met this summer ( one of them has the name Megan too so i think that is sign .... )


but .....

i think i am just replacing something i just lost and i really don't think that is right, specially since i have only had one conversation with this no named boy. Matt e-mailed me back (it was really short ) and he didn't even comment on anything i wrote except for " lol " wow .... bleh

he met some boys to hang out with, and you know what that means, those boys will introduce him to their friends (that will probably be girls ) and then i won't have a long distance relationship i'll just have a developing crush on a boy that was probably just making polite conversation with the girl two inches away from him.